@Sucker4PiedPipers Honestly, this is the first time I've shared this with someone, and gotten beautiful advices.. I kept it to myself and never really thought about other's perspective on the same, but now u've bestowed upon light, very much needed, so I genuinely thank u, bcs I wanted to share it to someone else, and it reached somewhere different as well, but so worth it, I'll try to find something that makes ME happy, I think this is what I should do, ryt? Thnk u so much for ur time and luv, and most importantly showing concern over a complete stranger..luv ya' (friends?)