youseesushi

when u finally admit ur sexuality to a few people and instantly regret it TT 
          	
          	i just realize that im not ready to disclose it.

youseesushi

maybe it is all the stress i’m going through these days that it makes my tolerance level so low but sometimes i just can’t handle socializing for very long. except that doesn’t mean i want to be left completely alone. and when i say i can’t handle socializing, i don’t mean i push away people if that’s what ur thinking and ur about to tell me “wELl MayBe tHAtS whY no One iS tExtINg u” like no i’m not a bleep to people when ive maxed out my social levels. i just start to lose energy, i become exhausted. not that i get tired of them, i just physically get tired. ya get me? im rambling :p

youseesushi

anyways. usually i tolerate the jokes my boyfriend makes because tbh it’s not even bad but these daysc my tolerance level is so low and after i get upset about something he said while we were just enjoying our time together, i realize i overreacted and i hate it so much like why do i always end up ruining something good? 

youseesushi

like whoever reads this might see that it is quite obvious. i really only go here these days when no one is talking to me. and tbh i really only have two people left that i talk to on a daily basis. my girl best friend and my boyfriend but unfortunately my boyfriend knocked out again and my best friend is traveling with her family rn.