@yuki_wolf09 gosh, that's horrible, I do not really know you, but I'm always available to talk, if maybe you just need someone who doesn't know you and with no expectations of you to talk with. Or maybe even a new online friend/acquaintance.
I just hope it gets better for you❤️
Sending lots of love❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Also, go get some good restful sleep, you sound really tired