You're not a disappointment too anyone. I'm pretty sure a lot of people love you how you are and for who you are and don't think that you're a disappointment. Don't think so lowly of you because I'm also rly sure that there are a lot of people looking up to you. Either for you're writing, physical appearance, character, for what a strong person you are and a lot more.
I know my words might not help at all but I don't want to see you feeling bad and/or sad because you don't deserve to feel like that, no one does.
Oh and BTW ik i might seem rly rude but I hope you know that I'm only like that because I rly appreciate u as my friend (even tho ur older haha)
Well that's everything. I hope you can cheer up *sings cheer up* BYE~