lol, can’t change my username.

i take it too far..
          sana pala, diko nalang sinabi yon.
          edi sana, we're goood..
          naguguilty ako, bakit hindi ko sinend sa kanya
          god, i can't lose them

no one's reading my wall so, 

i want to die, so bad.
          but I won't, I'm alive. 
          because of him.
          he saved me, again.
          always.
          if it weren't for him.
          I'm alr dead.
          i want to thank him.
          but, how i couldn't know.
          he's suffering, because of me.
          how did i let that happen.
          because, i was only thinking about myself.
          I'm selfish.
          i hate myself. for making him feel like crap.
          that he wasn't good enough.
          but, he's literally perfect.
          he's the ideal man.
          my type of a man.
          my baby.