yuseiboushi619

HELLO! HELLO! HELLO HUMANS!!!
          	
          	First of all, I apologize for dipping for so long. Didn't do it intentionally, lately I'm struggling with writing in general. My standards have gotten high, and my skills have basically evaporated. It's a huge inner conflict that makes me stay so far away from updating my fanfic, and I have started to dread coming to this app.
          	
          	But now all of that is gone. The next chapter is almost fully written, and the last fawking scene, spoiler alert, it's Dazai vs Miyamoto scene- is fawking hard to write! I know what Dazai is gonna say to him, but I don't know how to like organize the whole scene? And honestly, I have been stuck here for months now. I open my doc and just edit and read whatever I wrote up to this point, think its awesome, then go to that point and think, arghhhh what am I even doing?
          	
          	I am truly sorry, but I am trying. I think I figured the scene out, and I'll try to update before the 10th of July. If I don't, I'm a dog. Please pressure me so I can meet this deadline. 
          	
          	Also, thank you for checking on me :) I'm glad you guys are still waiting patiently even though I am failing to deliver on time!! Means a lot

leafscent

@yuseiboushi619 ooo wait i just saw this i feel like a chud.. never apologize for taking breaks or not updating a fic, your mental and physical health matters more than anything else! You're free to take your time, or taking a breather of how long you want—regardless it's not your fault if you don't upload in time or if something is not up to your expectations, because I'm sure there will be people who'd be overjoyed to see a new notification from you regardless from the time! Well that includes me... The writing is always far too good it makes me cry from how beautifully it's always been written.. (⁠｡⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠)
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yuseiboushi619

@theonlylosercode looks like I am a dog T.T
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theonlylosercode

@yuseiboushi619 Author-san… even July 11th has come already. :'(
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Tiff_5831

Yo… I know it sounds crazy but I had a friend that wanted to do it. I literally had to pull every talk no jutsu that you wrote Riki said to Dazai to convince my friend to not do it and I think it work…
          
          I hope you know that your story can actually really impact life and it’s not just a simple fan fiction…

Tiff_5831

@yuseiboushi619 I was panicking and just throwing everything out then decided to copy some of Riki’s words. Hope you don’t sue me for copyright (^_^;)
            
            I basically copy the part where Riki point out he doesn’t want to die and just want a reason to continue. Also on the part where she told him to find something or someone to be worth suffering for. Didn’t even open the book to type it out, just typing out what I remember and it is something because I don’t remember fanfic the way I did with your fanfic. But, seriously I’m so glad I found your book.
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yuseiboushi619

@Tiff_5831 I don’t know what to say... TT I'm glad my words can reach someone! I hope your friend is okay now!
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leafscent

Now that I'm listening to more songs, the song "New Perspective" by Panic! At the disco really reminds me of Riki-chan, considering its chorus!
          
          "Stop there and let me correct it
          I wanna live my life from a new perspective 
          You come along because I love your face
          And I'll admire your expensive taste, and
          Who cares? Divine intervention
          I wanna be praised from a new perspective
          But leaving now would be a good idea
          So catch me up on gettin' out of here"
          
          Although I'm not really good at explaining why, it's just the lyrics reminds me of Riki's choices! Leaving her past life behind, making new choices, and living her life from a new perspective.. a change maybe ^_^
          
          Ahh.. i may not have explained very well but what would you say author-san? Which songs do you feel like would suit her? (˶ˆᗜˆ˵)

leafscent

@yuseiboushi619 I've also haven't heard that song, and am also currently listening to it while reading translations of the lyrics, hearing the melody makes me feel a tad bit melancholic and nostalgic (like as if I've heard this song somewhere else before), i can understand why you chose the song! (˶ˆ꒳ˆ˵)
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yuseiboushi619

@leafscent never heard of it, but now listening to it!! Its pretty optimistic I'd say, carries her essence! <3
            
            To me, songs that reminds me of her is Uma to Shika by kenshi Yonezu. It has a dark undertone. Altho its japanese, but you can look up the lyrics if you want though!
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leafscent

Haii author-san! It's been a while .. you know, I've somewhat grown out of reading fanfics and wattpad in general to be quite fair, I've gone through school and employment.. and yet i still find myself sometimes checking wattpad only just to see if this fanfic updated. It made me overjoyed to see it being updated, even though I'm quite late by one month... Or 8 months too, considering i haven't even seen ch. 51 gulps... Maaann I haven't been using wattpad for a long while haven't i... Gulps...
          
          But seriously though, this fic has definitely made an impact on me, to the point i still think about it whenever someone talks about "fanfics" in general, your writing has always been marvelous and gorgeous in my eyes. (˶ˆᗜˆ˵)
          
          "Oh yah! My art skills have improved during this time.. I may try to draw riki-chan? Although I don't know how to get it through, do i just make a fic and put art in it? 🤔" This was what i wrote before.. erm i may or may have not doodled riki-chan and published a chapter with it.. gulps...
          
          I have started to love dazai again after falling out of touch with the BSD famdom... Just because of your fanfic, you do wonders job..
          
          Oh and offtopic but also thank you for teaching me the improper use of bludgeon hehwjhww... >:3 my turn to become evil with my oomfs...

leafscent

@yuseiboushi619 that's fair! Life can be an ass and that's so true... Goodluck with your studies hehe! ^_^ You're welcome!<3
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yuseiboushi619

@leafscent I haven’t been writing much lately as well, life is being life and uni is being uni lolll. I'm glad my fic made an impact on you, and that you keep coming back to it ❤️ aaa ily really!! Thank you for your kind words!!
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mao_shii

Yusei-san, since you're someone who's interested in the anime Bungou Stray Dogs, right?🌚...and you might have heard of a writer named
           <<Yukio Mishima>> maby?
          
          Hmmm🙃
          
          ...what do you think of this character? 😗
          
          (He's actually part of this anime😉 
          He has an amazing ability... and he will also disguise himself as Dazai in a certain part🔥😭.; I saw it on the fandom website ... I hope I don't end up looking foolish and that the information is misleading.🥲)

yuseiboushi619

@mao_shii I dont follow that part of the franchise to be honest :( So I cannot really tell. I do want to learn more about it later, however
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mao_shii

But his ability is truly amazing. I had envisioned a similar ability for one of my fanfic characters... so I'm thinking of changing things... 😑
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Tiff_5831

Pesan ini mungkin menyinggung 
I still can’t comment on anything in the new chapter…(╯‵□′)╯︵┻━┻
          I’ll just comment here. To everyone that’s scrolling through here, spoiler alert for the new chapter!
          
          The boy that ate 6 bullets…that was crazy, even give him a water to chug it down Σ（ﾟдﾟlll）. Low key I would prefer to shoot myself than doing that because what made him think he still have the chance to lived after that.  Might as well thought about his father one last time then pull the trigger, he gave me Draco Malfoy’s core. 
          
          Is the father gonna be a problem in the future? Because the kid seems way too confident despite knowing Dazai is a Port Mafia Executive unless the kid never heard of Dazai’s achievement. Yet Dazai doesn’t seem to be worried to face the politician? Or Riki is the one that will be in trouble because the kid’s father could have research his kid’s activity before he died and realised his kid have a crush on someone but got rejected then his friend died after his kid gave order to kill Riki. Also, I wonder what’s Riki’s reaction to this because I feel like Dazai would tell her soon since it would be worse if it was reveal far into the future than now. I know Riki will be mad because they’re still a minor but at the same time not really since that kid literally order another kid to kill her(^_^;) and I feel like Riki would understand it. 
          
          Btw, can we talk about the kid that literally told Dazai he didn’t see her naked through his ability…? Like why would you even say that after you got beat up（ーー；）There’s no way the kid will thought of that at the situation he’s in because is really dread unless he actually did it and thought Dazai know…
          
          I’m extremely happy for Riki, that girl finally can express her feeling openly to Dazai. Hope to see more scene of her expressing it, wonder what Dazai’s reaction is because that girl has been holding it in since forever and she finally got to exploded it out. Although I feel like she will still hold back physical contact but less than before.

Tiff_5831

@yuseiboushi619 Oh yeah! I saw my fan art on the new chapter! Hope you like it although it feels like is life giving me hints to stop colouring because I’m so bad at it… I think I should just stick with drawing without colouring because all my drawings without colouring always look so good…╮(￣▽￣"")╭
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Tiff_5831

@yuseiboushi619 The differences is that this version of Draco Malfoy is not making it…
            
            You know what? You’re right, Dazai can deal with Fyodor then he definitely can deal with a politician ٩(˃̶͈̀௰˂̶͈́)و. Although I wonder how would Mori take this because he definitely will notice if a politician decided to target Port Mafia, specifically the Demon Prodigy. 
            
            Ohh! That makes sense actually for her to know after exam finished, so it wouldn’t ruin her mood or her focus or anything. Imagine Riki thought about how there’s two student missing mysteriously and then Dazai drop the bomb on her ToT.  
            
            SO HE DID SEE HER NAKED!?
             Σ（・□・；）OMG RIKI!!!! This is so messed up…should have given her a chance to bitch slap the boy one more time before he die. I would never wish that on my worst enemy bro ( ；´Д｀)
            
            Low-key I feel like Oda and Ango already knew that Dazai and Riki have feeling to each other, there’s no way they didn’t know. Like maybe Ango will be silent at first then congrats them and asking how it happened. While Oda probably…just admit he noticed it then express his good trust and congrats them.
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yuseiboushi619

@Tiff_5831 ohhhhhh wow!! i like hearing you input, and dw, u wont be in trouble for that warning.
            
            Miyamoto did kinda give malfoy energy lmao. While yeah, it's gonna be a huge deal, but trust that Dazai will Dazai his way out of this nonsense lmao.
            
            Riki... Yeah, she will find out. But Dazai will do his best so she doesnt find out before her exams are over you know? And her reactions... Well the next chapter might cover it!
            
            When Dazai asked Miyamoto why he pursued Riki so hard, Miyamoto said she's hot. And ofc dazai understands the mind of a teenage boy with an ability to see through stuff. He's pissed off instantly, but to Miyamoto it just looked like Dazai stopped smiling for a sec. This is also the reason Dazai removed his glasses so Miyamoto ends up permanently losing his sight trying to navigate his escape. But Miyamoto slipped and ended up dying lmao. 
            
            Miyamoto basically registered Dazai taking his glasses as the punishment for seeing her nakey lol
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Tiff_5831

OMG I CAN’T WITH WATTPAD. 
          
          I kept trying to comment on some scene in the new chapter but is not opening the comment for me. I think is bug…
          
          Is okay… I’ll comment once is okay I promise ٩(˃̶͈̀௰˂̶͈́)و

Tiff_5831

@yuseiboushi619 ME TOO!!! One of the best part about online story is to read the comments, liking or replying to their comments or add your own comments. Whenever I press it, it either didn’t show the comments and froze my screen or it show half of the screen of the comments which make me need to reopened Wattpad to try it again and I gave up. I still can’t reply to one of your reader named ‘Ilovedaydreaming5’, they reply to my comments but I can’t reply back!!! If you’re reading this, ‘Ilovedaydreaming5’ I’m not ignoring you!!! IS WATTPAD!!!
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yuseiboushi619

@Tiff_5831 i cannot even read the comments! I click on a notif and they send me somewhere else!
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Tiff_5831

@mao_shii  Wait you too??? LMAO
            
            I don’t what’s wrong with wattpad, I got a notification of someone replying to my comment in one of the chapter but I can’t reply to them as well.
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no_longer_human2910

Buddy please update Ive been craving to see riki gagging ango up by actually dating dazai when the guy had no faith

Tiff_5831

@no_longer_human2910  Wait I low-key like that,…I need Riki to be all over Ango’s face and show off Dazai beside her
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yuseiboushi619

@no_longer_human2910 UPDATED BROO
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Tiff_5831

How’s your exam? ~(・・？）

Tiff_5831

@yuseiboushi619 Better treat yourself after this, writing story and having exam is a pain in the ass. Author-San finally can take a break after feeding us ToT. Might as well go have a bowl of dessert for yourself, if you like sweet that is…
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yuseiboushi619

@Tiff_5831 T'was meh! But I survived loll
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Milania234

Girl, I was so worried; I thought something had happened to you.(っ °Д °;)っ＞︿＜

Milania234

@yuseiboushi619 I was so scared I thought u died
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Milania234

@yuseiboushi619  oh thank god
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yuseiboushi619

@Milania234 Ahaha Don't worry I was just in a heavy writer's block lol
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theonlylosercode

My wattpad is glitching -_- I couldn't reply to your massage in there
          Your message honestly made me smile, and your words mean more to me than I can put into words T^T
          I'll do my best to stay safe. After all, I still have a story to finish reading, and I fully intend to be there when you post the final chapter. I can't wait to see how it ends :)