and like i wrote a long ass paragraph for her and then i saw her writing for other people and jus wanted to cri and then i started crying in the middle of some speech but then i jus thot up a lie like i yawned or smthing even doe that was a stupid lie but like no one even cared, no one checked in on me and i jus feel like i’m frickin alone and i wan to jus curl up into a ball and roll away