@yyaaaanyann
Now, i figured it out. An over confident attitude can easily become arrogance in a snap. Overconfidence is like a double edged weapon; and it can quickly become lethal in all aspects of its being. Scary, yes but it if terrifying to see it happen in and to the people you love. Its amazing how it can change your perspective of a person; how you see and feel towards the other.
Gikapoy nako nimo hehe
I now realize the being upset is better than being tired. Because when youre upset, you know it will just pass but when you're tired it basically numbs you in such a way that you dont even want i care anymore. And it takes so much to b tired from being upset. Its works like an expired anesthetic. You know it numbs but you can still feel it but youre to tired to put on o much energy towards it. Im want to be done being hurt and mad and upset an disappointed. Im tired of trying to keep up my patience, tired o trying to succumb to people, tired of trying to help, tired of not being appreciated, of feeling lower than i did before starting, of constantly being mad and irritated. I am tired of helping you and putting on effort but still pushed around by you. I want this done. But it seems to go on. Whatever.
Guuurl malidto ka, maldita sd koooo hmmm
Asa makapalit ug bag o g batasan oyyy???
There is so much you can do to make me stop wanting to help you. So if I finally decide I dont want to, that goes to show that I have had enough. But just because I decided I dont want to help you, doesn't mean I'd stop (because the consequences of the other option is something I want to deal with or for sone other reason). It basically means while I help, i keep thinking of what ifs and what nots. What if i gave up? What if you lost me? What if this is not the best decision? What if I get up and leave suddenly finding my oath somewhere else? What happens then? Will i be appreciated today? Will i hear a thank you? Will I walk away angry again? Will i feel much more worse after? Basically, my heads going to be on a roll of wanting to give up. So when I help you even when i dont want to, the least you could do is shut up and leave me be. If you cant thank me and appreciate me, then don't bring me down either. BECAUSE WORDS HURT AND ACTIONS HURT. A SPUR OF MOMENT CAN LIVE ON. Thats that; simple actions with violent repercussions.
Pwede ba mapalit ang saktong pamatasan??? KAY MANGITA KO ASA AKONG IRECOMMEND ANING TAOHANA
Laking dako pero bitch kaayo wth pwede diay naaaa steee samokaaaa. Ikaw ang raon pirmi nganong apoyan ko aning balaya. Aysig pinamay ara ha ste.
Gikapoy nako sig tabang tao nga di kabaw mu appreciate ug tabang ba. Tanan hugaw akoy pasahan, basta mahgkalisod akoy ipiton. Do nako ganahan ani nga lifestyle ganahan ko muhawa. Ganahan ko mupalayo sa akong manghud because honeslty, the longer this dependency thing goes on, the more chances this relationship will shatter. Di nako ganahan tawgon ug way gamit. Di nako ganahan mah sig buhat ug butang nya awayon diay. Di nako ganahan gamay gamayon niya. Ganahan kog f2f para mabusy kos school nya di na kaymi magkita that then will be my escape. Perooo lauo pa man na and nah wonder ko if i die now, magmahay kaha siya? Or he'll act all righteous like wa siyay gibuhat sayop? But then i knew i wouldnt want to put my family in a place of guilt. Pero steeee kapooooya najd ug tabang sa tao nga way batasaan btaaaw. Its so messed up and its sooooo draining. It shouldnt be like this if kind lang ka nako or a little kinder. Di ko in ani ug reaction persoooo jusmio this pandemic has brought out the worst of you. And i cant do anything but suck it up and shut up. Heh
Do not call me lazy because i sit around for a couple minutes. I do so much more chores than you so shut your trap and know your insults; they bite.
