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bitanem

And the way you cut your hair
            I hate the way you drive my car
            I hate it when you stare
            I hate your big dump combat boots
            And the way you read my mind
            I hate you so much that it makes me sick
            And even makes me rhyme 
            I hate the way you’re always right
            I hate it when you lie
            I hate it when you make me laugh
            Even worse when you make me cry
            I hate it when you’re not around 
            And the fact that you didn’t call
            But mostly i hate the way i don’t hate you
            Not even close
            Not even a little bit
            Not even at all

Love, your shitty little sister, Max.

I don’t know if you can even hear this. Two years ago, i would have said “that’s ridiculous, impossible.” But that was before i found about alternative dimensions and monsters so i’m just going to stop assuming that i know anything. So much has happened since you left. Your dad was a total mess. He and my mom started getting into fights. Bad fights. I don’t think he could stand being here without you. So he left. And he didn’t leave mom much. She’s taken an extra job, and we moved to that lovely trailer park off Kerley. Basically, ever since you left, everything’s been a total disaster. And the worst part is, i can’t tell anyone why you’re gone. I can’t tell them that you saved El’s life. That you saved my life. I played that moment back in my head all the time. And sometimes i imagine myself running to you, pulling you away. I imagine that if i had, that you would still be here. And everything would be right again. I imagine that we could’ve become friends. Good friends, like a real brother and sister. And i know that’s stupid. You hated me. I hated you. But i thought that maybe we could try again. But that’s not what happened. I just stood there and i watched. For a while, i tried to be happy. Normal. But i think that maybe a part of me died that day too. And i haven’t told anyone this. I just can’t. But i had to tell you. Before it’s too late. If you can even hear this. I really hope that you can. I’m sorry. I’m so, so sorry, Billy.

Twinkling voice. I can’t hear your voice but i see it. I can feel it. You shine the brightest when you’re doing music. It’s when you look the coolest. 

Noah.

I couldn’t sleep last night because i know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore, because i know that we had was real.  And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives i’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent a summer beneath the trees. Learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more. That plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that’s what you’ve given me. Thats what i’d hoped to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you.