Why do I have so many toxic people in my life? I just want them to let me go, and they let me go.
I give them chance and yet, they make themselves the victim. They lie. I cry. The reason I have such trust issues is because of this.
I don't want to trust anyone who will stab me and than say they are bleeding.
I gave them chances.
They say I am the one at fault and I accept it. I am really the one who is at fault, I am the reason because this all happened. I tell them about how I am dealing with some stuff, but they twisted my words and gossiped. It was a whole lie.
I am afraid to be happy.
I don't want to feel happiness. Because when I am being myself, everyone hates me. And I also hate myself for being too happy.
Just why do toxic people exist?
I want to let them go, but the bond and closeness between us doesn't let me go.
I just don't want to feel close to anyone. I always cherish my memories with everyone, but no one cherishes them except for me.
Trouble starts from me.
I feel like I have less time in this world to live.
Sorry for the rant ignore this if you want to.......