zarry_heart_jade

I'm still unable to come to terms that Liam is no more. There have been times when my medicine or should I say, escape would be 1D videos, songs, concerts or be it anything related to them. I've loved and admired every single one of them for their unique characters and their love and gratitude to the fans who took them to the heights they never even imagined. Liam, personally had been my cherished one coz he was sensible, kind and responsible human with a charming smile. Everyone makes mistakes and nobody is perfect and he too made a fair share in his life coz c'mon he's a human being, not a programmed robot. He definitely didn't deserve such an end and it's been a hard time processing everything and to wrap my head around the fact that he was alive when I went to bed, but wasn't when I woke up. Just took a split second and everything fell apart, everyone fell apart; his family, friends, his brothers, his son and even us, his fans whom he didn't even know existed. They say a person's death shows how much loved and respected he was and now the whole world knows he was loved and cared for by millions of people who have never even met in person. His death left a scar behind on those million people's hearts. But he'll definitely live in our hearts and in our memories, through his songs everytime we hear them, coz he's not someone who can be forgotten easily. 
          
          RIP Lima Bean. 
          
          We'll miss you dearly. 

One day I take a Lil break from Wattpad and EVERYONE decides to update?? What's this! Everyday I wait for the updates and I don't get any but ONE DAY away you're suddenly spammed with notifications of updates 乁⁠(⁠ ⁠•⁠_⁠•⁠ ⁠)⁠ㄏ┐⁠(⁠´⁠д⁠`⁠)⁠┌

Some places just remind me how unlucky I was with love and life... Not once, but TWICE! I thought I had left behind everything, but probably hurt and pain love me more than anyone else to never leave me alone! *Bitter laugh* Just want something to numb this pain forever... Just anything... 
          
          Kyun khuda tune mujhe aisa khwaab dikhaya
          Jab haqiqat mein usey todna tha... 
          
          PS : Don't worry, guys. I'm fine and doing well. I just am blabbering here coz I couldn't do it anywhere else. It's been a long time since we all spoke. How are y'all? 
          
          Love _ J ❤️

OHHH COME ONNN CONGRATULATIONS 700 NOW UPADTEEEE AND WRITEEE TWOOOOO ONE SHOTTTTTT JALIDIIIIIIII!! (⁠/⁠^⁠-⁠^⁠(⁠^⁠ ⁠^⁠*⁠)⁠/

I'M OFFICIALLY AN AUNT NOW!!! ITS A BOYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! .⁠·⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠(⁠>⁠▂⁠<⁠)⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠·⁠..⁠·⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠(⁠>⁠▂⁠<⁠)⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠·⁠.

Baatein ye kabhi na, Tu bhoolna
          Koi tere khatir, Hai jee raha.. 
          Jaaye tu kahin bhi, Yeh sochna
          Koi tere khatir, Hai jee raha... 
          
          

Heart is broken; 
          Mind is sunken
          Tears that stuck to my face,
          They're my only solace;
          Everything I do, Everything I say,
          Don't matter anyway,
          Just like my existence-
          A mere pretense,
          Joyous laughs when everyone around,
          Silent tears when no one around,
          The wick of my candle, burnt black
          My soul crumbling, a wreck .
          In a game of Snakes and Lies,
          Too many times, I lost my lives,
          Struggling and fighting to stay awake,
          Never give your heart to keepsake,
          For it doesn't belong to anyone.
          Better to be heartless,
          Than to be spiritless,
          Love takes away everything from you,
          Your soul, your sanity and you.

I'll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror!
          
          
          My new obsession - ANTI-HERO  ❤️

It's your life! Don't let others tell you how to live it! Be your own commander ❤️

Nov 15... a black day forever in life (⁠θ⁠‿⁠θ⁠)