First of all, I am absolutely positive that you are the most beautiful human being that has ever step foot on this Earth. And the things that come out of uneducated, dim-witted people's mouths' are just atrocious. They have no idea what they're saying and this is probably a cliché thing to say at a time like this, but they are jealous. It may not seem possible, I know first-hand that it's hard to believe, but you should try to. When people say bad things about others, they are just trying to mask some secret insecurity and you sadly are put in harms way because of their lack in ability to be able to deal with all of their pent up emotions in another way. And as for being blamed for something so horrible when it was clearly another person's fault, that's just ridiculous. And you just have to remember that you were the victim. You don't have to feel sorry for yourself but when you are the victim, it is physically impossible to be the perpetrator. Therefore, you are not to blame. And as for the cutting, I understand. And right now, I can't be a hypocrite. So all I am going to say is that you need to fight. Fight to find another way to express yourself. It's hard. I am trying right now to do exactly that. But I am slowly learning that it will not pay off in the long run. And a little fact- when you don't eat, your body goes into starvation mode and trust me, that is a whole lot worse than a meal or two a day. I, again, know this first hand. Also, I just want to say that I believe in you, that you will be able to overcome trust issues and I also know that you WILL be able to love again. Last but not least,
Depression- a condition of general emotional dejection and withdrawal; sadness greater and more prolonged than that warranted by any objective reason. -That's what the dictionary says. It's cold and hard and not understanding. But right now you have someone here, who is alive and warm and cares. So please, I beg of you, talk to me if you need someone.
