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it took me about 6 months to fully accept mashidam's department. and it was only until both mashidam created instagram accounts on their own. that was when it completely strucked me that they are really on their own now. my heart doesn't aches that much anymore whenever i rewatched tmap again. instead, i felt happy that they were once a part of treasure. just that mere thought is enough to make me feel contented. im so so glad mashidam were once called treasure. now, i will support mashiho, yedam and treasure continuously as long as i breathe, but there'll not be a time where i forget that they used to be twelve. i will always cherish their memories as twelve, that's my promise. 

i moved on, sort of. i have accepted that they'll never be twelve again but i'll always remember them as twelve. ten in eyes, twelve in heart. 

ive never post anything about the japan line now. it just feels weird and incomplete seeing them as three. usually, i used to cherish the four japanese members a lot and would never miss any member out. if there's just three of them in a picture, i wouldn't address them as japan line, but rather their names. so it feels very very unusual to address the three members as the complete japanese line. but i guess, i'll have to get used to it. 

i like to think the news was just a dream. and there will be day where i will just wake up from it. seriously, i had never expected any of treasure members would leave. whenever that idea crossed my mind, i would be like "nah that's literally impossible" and that's literally what happened. i'm still devastated.

i kinda moved on from mashidam's departure but it's still hard to swallow. my heart aches whenever i see them as ten now and wishes i could see them as twelve again. though, that is literally impossible 

i don't have the appetite to eat, im so sad