inusysha25

I was scrolling through mu fb timeline, and guess what. May pic ung asin ng baloy nakapackimg na parang sachet ng shab*. Haha. Naalala ko pa noon, after natin mag dvo, 2nd meet up na ata natin yun, nag mojitos tau tapos yung half kilo ng asin or 1/4 nilagay mo sa gilid ng bag ko. So nung pauwi na ako, na tarantej ako ng konti kasi nilapitan ako nung screening officer sa airport ng dvo  buti nlbg dvo airport yun  tinanong ano yung nasa hilid ng bag ko  kaya ayun, not aware ano mukha ko, sinabi ko asin pp yun  hahaha   

inusysha25

Yung sarap at sobrang sakit, yung  klase ng sakit na ngayon ko nararanasan, yan ang parang sumusuntok sa dibdib ko ngaun. Ng brebreakdown ako everytime may problemang darating. Kung nkakadehydrate at nakakamatay lang sana ang walang tigil na pag iyak, siguro papatusin ko na. Wala ehhh takot ako mamatay sa disgrasya kasimasakit, kung magbibigti rin naman same story lang yun. Masakit parin 

inusysha25

Sept. 9, 2023 
          
          It's really sad to know that,  now i think that im sober, it is soooo hard to accept that's it's over. I started the joke , and reality hits hard, that the song  really happens, well to me it does, and feels like it never ends. Never will.  Hard af to accept that the joke was on me. I've seen a tiktok post saying that, sleeping with the same bed with someone does'nt make you close to someone, what makes you really close to someone is that you can feel that is ok to be very vulnerable at ur darkest time, but still understoods you in so many ways. You have always been a good listener and an advicer to me. More than love, you have showed me what a true valor looks like. I will forever be sad for choosing to look at a distant and invicible moon, and being unfair of not fully admiring the stars. Most especially,letting my self to be fond of the temporary world making me the selfish hooman you have ever known. 
          
          Its has been almost every day, waking up late at night, crying for no reason, and admitting that "i regret living my life with a lie, and now im asking the world to let me lie, and rest" . 
          
          Can u still pick up the broken pisces, even if you have alreasy move on from everything???  Is there anytime you have ever think of me, maybe a thing that reminds you of me?? Because i think i could leave the world and myself in exchange for that.