Sept. 9, 2023
It's really sad to know that, now i think that im sober, it is soooo hard to accept that's it's over. I started the joke , and reality hits hard, that the song really happens, well to me it does, and feels like it never ends. Never will. Hard af to accept that the joke was on me. I've seen a tiktok post saying that, sleeping with the same bed with someone does'nt make you close to someone, what makes you really close to someone is that you can feel that is ok to be very vulnerable at ur darkest time, but still understoods you in so many ways. You have always been a good listener and an advicer to me. More than love, you have showed me what a true valor looks like. I will forever be sad for choosing to look at a distant and invicible moon, and being unfair of not fully admiring the stars. Most especially,letting my self to be fond of the temporary world making me the selfish hooman you have ever known.
Its has been almost every day, waking up late at night, crying for no reason, and admitting that "i regret living my life with a lie, and now im asking the world to let me lie, and rest" .
Can u still pick up the broken pisces, even if you have alreasy move on from everything??? Is there anytime you have ever think of me, maybe a thing that reminds you of me?? Because i think i could leave the world and myself in exchange for that.