well, ive been thinking about this a lot, been bottling up inside of my head for too long i guess, so just wanna share it here (didnt even know who's gonna read it but im doing it anyways).
the thing about writing, for me. its... kinda complicated? back then i could literally write like a whole story with a freaking sequel without a problem, just writing whatever idea based on whats in my imagination and brain.
but now? god damn, feels even more hard to me. especially since i discovered so many crucial part about writing, like creating a whole board of each characters, arranging every micro plot, making sure it will keep being interesting, how to execute a hard genre like thriller, AND SOOOOO MUCH MORE, bruh.
yeah, honestly. it came to the point where its just tiring for me to create this whole planning thing before even started to write the story.
likeeee broooo come on man, i used to write for fun and because i have too many ideas in my head, u know? not because i wanted the story to be perfect, not quite. but now i feel like everything ive written is just... NOT ENOUGH.
but then, girl. maybe thats just means ure growing. learning new skills and theories about something that uve been focusing on since long ago (literally 5th grade). and yeah, thats the only thing that i can accept from this whole issue.
i never lose my passion in writing, though. and never planning to either. i still feel ITCHY super itchy to write, to create another story. just hoping that i will forever get motivated HAHAHAHA.
