that_weirdgirl

So I'm back! Probably not to write but..yay?

IM BACK BITCHES 
          
          TO 53 NOTIFS 
          NO GUARANTEE ILL BE WRITING BUT ITS WHATEVER 

I hate it when I open up to people about my pain, and all they do is leave me.
          
          I hate it when they say forever in the moment but forget their own words later on.
          
          I hate pretending to be someone I'm not.
          
          I hate it when the say that they have my back and that they'll be there but leave when I need them most.
          
          I hate it when they say it's all in my head.
          
          I hate it when they say they'll be with me but end up chewing and spitting me back out like I'm worth less than the dirt under their fingernails.
          
          I hate it when they come to me only to rant about their own life and forget about me.
          
          I hate how I'm the 2nd choice.
          
          How no one would talk to me unless I'm their last choice.
          
          I hate saying I'm fine when in really not.
          
          I'm tired of fighting a losing battle without you by my side.
          
          I hate how they only notice my mistakes and not my achievements. 
          
          How they think that they can take advantage of me in my weaken mental state.
          
          I hate how the only person I can talk to is my fucking dog.
          
          I hate being played.
          
          I hate how they ask why I have all these walls to protect myself from being hurt when they're the reason I put them up.
          
          I hate it.
          
          I hate it how so many fucking people are so fucking arrogant about their own pain and not notice the pain of others.
          
          I hate it.
          
          I hate how I have trust issues.
          
          I hate how much I can't be loved.
          
          You broke me
          
          (Sorry, I needed to rant)

I swear I'm not dead. Mentally, yes. 

most of my stories are improv, that's why I haven't been able to update as much on my CH story

So would you rather have a stucky highschool au or more one shots?

do you think that it's sad that the only notifications are the streaks on snap and when someone announces something? Just me?

I promise that i'm working on the story, school started but I got exposed to covid so I should get a bit done

So do you want longer chapters and not as often or shorter and more frequent?

alright, 4th is out but idk if its the full version. So if its short please reply.
          you will know because its after the warning around the middle