Frosty

I uh managed to win a fancall with zb1 ricky and I'm panicking 

hey so like y'all should play jeongguk bot on discord it's a fun kpop card bot

I have bursts of when im more on ao3 compared to here but dear god its been since like oct 16th from what i can tell by my notifications dear god i don't wanna go through it all

I feel so disgustingly used and wronged for trying not to question why someone was the least biased but it makes so much sense now. At least with the smaller idols it's cheap enough and the communities aren't too large so if they lie to your face you have a genuine reason to feel upset but larger idols there's just no reason, no reason at all. But it makes me question all of my choices & decisions. This group keeps putting me through hell time and time again just because I decided to enjoy their music and be in their fanbase. I don't know how much longer I can take of this. It's impossible to act like everything is fine when it never is with them, something is always happening because a group with over 20 grown men was such a good idea as long as the cash flow is large enough. Fuck You SM. Fuck You MT. Fuck You BH. Every single one of you can spend the rest of your days rotting in the eternal abyss because even hell is too good for you all. 

Still remembering my Beomhan fancall and how WRONG it went

Making these reading lists has been taking forever dear lord

I've been trying to put the books in my library to reading lists but some almost reach max or hit max & I cannot write down them all to make sure I dont repeat any if I make another. This sucks.

NEW USERNAME ERAAAA 
          Maknae On Top?
          Nahhhh
          Frosty On Top!!!

There's small moments I look back on as I go through life & realize how fucked up they were. Intentional or not sometimes things are just.... Fucked

Okay so like I read this fanfic years ago when I read emo fanfics but I never stopped thinking about it (I cleared my library so I don't have it) BUT it was this one Fall Out Boy fanfic where this person gets adopted by Pete Wentz, THEN falls for him, BUT PETE DOES TOO, so at some point one of the members ends up adopting the person so we can date Pete & THERE ENDED UP BEING A SECOND BOOK I THINK? BUT LIKE IT WAS SO BIZARRE LOOKING BACK NOW. CAUSE THE CHARACTER WAS A MINOR. BUT I SO BADLY WANT TO FIND IT NOW. PLEASE HELP ME.