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I wondered if I can do big things in life. But everytime I tried I just felt I can't not because I don't want but maybe people don't see that I can do such things.  I'm not saying that I'm good but I can definitely assure you that I'm one of the hard working people in the room but at the end no one sees the efforts that I've made.  Maybe I'm just a person who don't shine that it tooks so much effort for me to be notice. I never been an option.  So I came to the point that I am tired of proving myself. Today I choose to just exist and save my energy  for the greater things stored for me in the future.  Today I choose the things that is good for my mental health.  Today I choose myself.  I will just deliver but don't expect me to go beyond what is ask to me. I will just exist. 

Going back mid year of 2020 I could say I'm totally lost. I thought that there's no hope for me.  I'm stuck on where I'm and it cause me anxiety, I'm on my lowest part of my life thinking I couldn't change anything despite of many tries I made still the result will be the same.  I felt so defeated and accept that maybe it's not for me, so I lay low and just cherish what I have during that time.  Little did I know that sometimes waiting is the best thing to do cause after being so down, God will lift you up removing all the overthinkings, anxiety and loneliness. He help me to finish that battle and made me the victor at the end. 
          
          What I've learned from last year is to always trust the process and most of the time that process cannot be finish overnight it took months or even years. I think the best thing to do while waiting is to reflect, learn and master your craft so that when you are at that moment you can say that you are more than ready and more than prepared for it.  
          
          Cheers, to all the silent battles that we conquered last year  and be ready for more battles we will have this year.  As long as we put our faith to God, I know God will help us to be the victor.  Always put our feet on the ground and remember why we are doing all of this. 
          
          

Remembering Watty wayback then it's more than reading you will meet a lot of people that you can be friends on and you can chat with them. I remember there's lounge na minsan tumatambay din ung mga sikat na writers to chat with.  May lounge pa kaya dito kay watty?  

The most painful part in life is making yourself believe that your okay but in reality you're not.  You achieved things that you think will make you feel good but at the end of the day there's still a missing piece in your jigsaw puzzle.  Then you accept that you are lost in the dark and now you cannot see any light.  The feeling of drowning in to many emotions that cause you anxiety and overthinking. You are asking yourself what's next or what future aheads. You don't know how to restore yourself. You just keep holding that thin string of hope believing that oneday this misery ends and you will find yourself again.  

It's been 4 years. Kung di pa nag ECQ di ko ulet mabubuksan to. Daming nag bago ahh.

Ohayo! Padaan! Haha

It's been a long time wattpad. :)

Dream while others are playing.

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