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It's been long..i feel like crying soo much..all were my fault... somewhere if i can hold on...or can accept the chenge of the PPL of my heart or choose my mouth to keep shut n keep my mind to stop thinking wht they did for me,to me... thn i never need to lose thm ....
but how can I accept the so called heart, getting to be someone... eye shift... okay okay thts my fault too...
Coz i thought, i also deserve love, like why not evryone does..but i destroyed too much tht my body keep saying.fuck you...
But the pain gone,whn i got the lesson..the subject was me. ... I'm solids..tht much solid tht love doesn't deserve me,i was fault too think,tht i deserve like all get...whn we are all individuals, ... thankyou for the lesson...
Never judge yourself for being failure in this lifetime, coz wht doesn't deserve you,how much u pay ,put efforts thts can't be yours....n don't make god the criminal like he didn't give you wht u want..... he can give you if the prayers were equally frm both side.. efforts, trust wanting all..but frm both side....
Listen bro,if you are the parent n u see your child crying to sit with a classmate n the classmates smile on your kid,but calling someone or occupied the place like there's no such place to give you but , still been arrenge. Bro you'll buy or arrenge new bench tht no one look forward to talk with my kid... isn't it...!?
N it's taken 5 yrs to me to understand... you know God isn't real,is not good to say...but he is taking care each single time like your biological parents can't do.... never feel alone.... 25.09.2023___11;28pm
