𝓏𝒽'𝓈 [𝒾𝓈𝓁𝒶] ✰

bruh turns out i cant write a fic without heavy angst TvT im crying
          
          im currently planning for yura yura and i originally came up with the idea of this fic as a silly highschool haobin falling in love thing where they just love eo and are teenagers but i planned the backstories and stuff and the timeline is supposed to span 6 years and its kind of insanely sad even though they get happy ending.. TvT
          
          obviously its gonna be ten million pages long if i write out all 6 years of the planned timeline, so theres gonna be timeskips but like.. if there are timeline jumps then you know its gonna be sad TvT
          
          uh so anyways im gonna spend a bit more time trying to make the timeline shorter bc this is not as chill as i originally planned for..
          
          but with this fic, since its au, that means i can make it as sad and angsty as i want bc im not writing about haobins real life heh
          
          im gonna try to incorporate a bunch of the stuff i wanted for tfilwyom but didnt get to write in this :)))
          
          anyways, will be back w more updates laterr!!!!!
          
          isla xx

sorry for the disappointment about tfilwyom yesterday:(
          but i'm at least happy to announce that the new haobin highschool au fic is coming!!
          
          be excited:)
          
          
          
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          ❀《yura yura, my flower of fate》❀
          
          
          definition of title:
          yura yura (ゆらゆら)  ➝  to sway. a light, back-and-forth motion, such as flowers in a breeze, a boat on calm water, or flickering flames. often implies a soft, relaxed movement. slow swaying, dangling, or fluctuating.
          
          in other words:
          "sway gently, my flower of fate." ⋆˚࿔
          
          
          ˳༄꠶
          
          
          "my cherry blossoms are waiting for me, aren’t they?"

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          ! if you havent read the post starting with "1:" yet, pls scroll down and go read that and then come back!
          
          anyways, once again, im so so so extremely sorry, BUT: this does not mean im going to ditch yall forever.
          
          i do have ideas for au fics, such as high school ones, as you guys know, so i will def be trying my best to write a new fic.
          
          i know that you guys dont know how old i exactly am, but tfilwyom was genuienly so cringe sometimes and super unrealistic, and also just dragged on for so long because at the time of writing, i did not know how to stop yapping and just get on with the point. (mind yall, that was 1-1.5 years ago, and when ur a teen, i feel like the difference of a few years is insane bc u grow up so quickly during teenagehood)
          
          anyways, what this just means is that when i write a new fic, im going to actually properly plan out the whole thing, and make it much shorter, so that i'll actually have the time to write and update and not get 10million writers blocks bc im too fixated on one scene that didnt even need to be there....
          
          bc i literally didnt realise it, but when i checked my word count for tfilwyom, it was around 100k (and its unfinished)... which is genuienly crazy, but also half of that was all yapping...
          so this time, im going to shorten the fic so its around 50-80k in total, and focus on better writing now that im actually older and more educated:)
          
          another thing that you guys will be disappointed about is that im going to unpublish tfilwyom..
          TvT
          yea. im so sorry. i loved the plot but my writing sometimes was genuinely not it, and i dont want that on the internet TvT TvT
          but seriously dont worry, sometime this year, im going to come back with the new fic- infact, ill probably post a preface to it rlly soon! just know that my updates might be slow.. :(
          
          but once again, im really genuinely so sorry. thank you everyone for sticking around, and i hope you all heal, though slowly, but eventually from zb1s splitting..
          
          see you <3
          
          ~isla xx

1:
          
          so.. long time no see guys..
          
          i have still not gotten over their disbandment and i dont think i ever will. ive watched all their disbandment content and stuff zeroses posted and im genuinely just so shocked, even though it was alr confirmed ages before. i seriously cant believe that theyve disbanded, and even though everyone seems happy and are a great team in a2ble, i just know that they all miss eo so much, and i rlly rlly rlly miss ot9 aswell:( i was watching zb1s photoshoot, and it just felt so empty w/o the yuehuaz there..
          i think another thing that really shocked me was that everything that happened was lowk what i predicted in tfilwyom..
          
          so with that, im seriously so so so incredibly sorry to let you all know that im going to discontinue tfilwyom.
          
          im so sorry bc ik that you guys are probably all very disappointed, and i did say that i would finish it no matter what, but i genuinely dont think that i can write abt it anymore now that theyve actually disbanded. it feels way too real now, and im not saying that everything else i wrote abt haobin fighting and stuff wil come true (and i desperately hope it wont), but i dont want to write about smth that mightactually be a real scenario. i started this fic for fun, thinking that nothing i wrote would actually happen, but now, 1.5 years later, zb1 has actually disbanded..
          
          as you guys know i also have not yet graduated high school, so this year is a rlly important academic yr for me, and i just dont have enough time to write-which is why i couldnt update much last year, and skl is going to be even more important for me this yr.
          
          so really, thank you so much to everyone who has been here the whole ride; im glad that the plot is atleast finished to some degree, and again, i am so so sorry for having to do this:(
          
          but guys, dont lose hope, and go to my next post bc im out of words TvT (the one starting with "2:" )

just watched the most gut wrenching reel of haobin reaching and running for each other the moment the lights went off on stage, cried for like 20 mins, watched another reel that was a compilation of the most heartbreaking videos of zb1 from boys planet to now AND SOBBED MORE HOW DO I EVEN LIVE AFTER MARCH </3 TvT

HI GUYS.
          so i in fact, did not update. TvT
          i would highkey be so annoyed if i was yall bc i keep promising updates but not doing so, so once again, im actually so so sorry... TvT
          but i was working on the update, and its actually pretty long so i was trying to just get out like half of it but then yh came and bombed us with all their announcements, and now we have reflow album and are 99% disbanding......
          
          and im so extremely sad abt this bc i actually love zb1 to an unhealthy level, but i think my bigger problem w this and the reason why i stopped writing is because WHY DID I LITERALLY PREDICT THIS HELLO???? LIKE UR ACTUALLY JOKING ME AND WHY IS YH ALSO TALKING ABT INDIVIDUAL PATHWAYS FOR THE MEMBERS LIKE THEY BETTER NOT SEND HARIBOZ BACK TO CHINA...
          
          SO THAT IS LITERALLY WHY I STOPPED WRITING, LIKE IM NOT JOKING BUT ATLEAST 75% OF THE CHAPTER WAS DONE, AND THEN.
          
          i was literally getting back into the flow like i didnt write for half a year so i lowk forgot how to, and then once i was feeling the vibes again, we got all these announcements and im not joking bro, i was so scared bc why did i literally predict this...
          
          and the crazy thing is that i've read other fics before that literally PREDICTED things that happened to zb1, like i've talked about it before, but there was this one fic that predicted haobin's naughty cover, which was in 2024, but the actual fic was published in 2023....
          
          and i read another fic (it was a sad one TvT) where the author said at the end that they wouldnt be writing another sad one bc they didn't want to like manifest that into reality (like not manifest but ykwim right?)
          
          but basically now im just way too freaking scared so that was why i stopped writing for the past few weeks..
          
          i dont even know what to do bruh.
          
          but trust, that update is coming someday guys TvT i think ill just do a boysplanet scene (pls suggest ones u wanna see)bc im rlly stuck and do not want to continue w the plot rn...
          
          lets pray zb1 gets a miracle..
          
          ~ isla <333

THESE RECENT NOTICES FROM YH ARE NOT DOING ANYTHING TO EASE MY HEART PLEASEEE
          they're talking about individual potentials and whatnot ISLA ISTG IS YOUR FIC ACTUALLY GAVE YH IDEAS im about to HUNT YOU DOWN TvT

guys im crashing out.
          
          so i mightve actually predicted the future in tfilwyom.... because if you havent heard, yunseo and seungeon are leaving evnne to return to yuehua...
          
          which means we are cooked. i think we all know why.
          
          yall that ot9 renewal aint happening.
          
          i feel like its kinda expected after the 2 month extension thing but this literally just confirmed it: yuehua's gonna take back hariboz, gyub, yujin, and make a 6 member group w yunseo and seungeon, or maybe hao and/or ricky will go back to china on solo careers, following the literal plot of my fic??????
          
          this is genuinely crazy to me because when i started tfilwyom a year ago, i quite genuinely believed that there would be some sort of miracle and that zb1 would last forever............
          
          i mean theres still a chance-
          
          TvT
          
          bruh i dont even know at this point, but all the signs are pointing towards a new yuehua bg. 
          
          im actually, seriously, genuinely pissed.
          
          plus yuehua can't even manage groups properly like what happened to tempest.... and we won't even talk about everglow okay, they had the biggest potential to become top 4th gen gg but then yuehua literally like locked them up somewhere and they disappeared completely....
          
          and call me insane and delusional but i genuinely believe that haobin are together (even tho in my fic i made it otherwise) because literally, have you seen them? that can't all be fanservice bro. but i actually won't be able to stand if something happens to haobin, like while i write and read fics abt them, they are still actual real people, and if they are actually something irl, i can't even imagine how painful it will be if they actually get separated bc of freaking yuehua. like if they're actually real, i genuinely wish for them to have the happy ending they deserve, and i really hope that stupid companies won't get between them.
          
          anyways that was a long rant, ill talk more in the update (which im workign on) heh:)
          
          have a nice day/night/whatever time it is <3
          
          ~~ isla

hey guys.
          
          soooooo guess who it is?????
          
          I AM BACK. AFTER A WHOLE AS YEAR.
          
          ok it hasnt been that long, like only 5 months since ive been on wattpad..........
          
          GUYS I AM SO EXTREMEMLY SORRYY, LET ME CATCH U UP ON WHAT HAS HAPPENED AND WHY I WAS INACTIVE FOR SO LONG
          
          so basically, i was just super duper caught up in school. I just had my finals exams a week ago, and we're getting our grades back and i'm so happy because everything so far has been around 95% and higher!!! 
          
          apart, from that, nothing has really happened, but i just kinda forgot about this fic and acc as i was locking in for skl...... i'm truly sorry guys TvT
          
          ok but i am true to my word tho, ok, like even if it takes me 3 years i will finish tfilwyom. i just need some time to reset and get the fic back into my brain, plus probably do a profile makeover to start on a fresh page and motivate me to write again!!!
          
          i feel like this yr in skl, ive learnt a lot of writing techniques and styles, and definitely expanded my vocab, so i feel like my writing can be better now! im rlly excited to write, i just need to break the ice a bit and wash away the rustiness ahahhaha
          
          to those who have been waiting for my update, i am really really so sorry, but you could expect a long update in the next month or so!! sorry its taking so long, but theres still 5 or so weeks until school ends, so i wont be able to update during then.
          
          but i will get into updating my profile rn, and i will start writing again tonight!! im so excited ehehehehe, and thank you to everyone who has waited for the past half a year- i will try not to disappoint you guys!!!
          
          thank you for all your patience and love, i'll see you guys with an update as soon as i can:)
          
          ~~ isla <3

HELLO EVERY BODYYYYYYY!!!!!!!
          
          GUESS WHO IT IS.
          
          BACK AFTER LIKE 4 MONTHS OF BEING INACTIVE.
          
          SO UM...
          
          FIRSTLY I AM SUPER DUPER RLLY RLLY SORRY THAT I HAVENT UPDATED IN LIKE LITERALLY 10 YEARS TvT
          
          MY EXCUSE IS SCHOOL AND EXTRACURRICULARS...... BUT LOWK I WAS ALSO HAVING A GIGANTIC WRITERS BLOCK ON THRE CURRENT CHAPTER AND  I LIKE KINDA GAVE UP AND JUST RESORTED TO READING AO3 FICS BC SOME OF THOSE ARE INSANE.
          
          BUT TRUST. I NEVER LEAVE ANYTHING UNFINISHED OKKKKK
          
          EVEN IF IT TAKES ME 3 YRS I WILL FINISH THIS FIC.
          
          I ACTUALLY CANNOT ASK U GUYS TO BE PATIENT W ME OOPS BC ITS BEEN 4 MONTHS SINCE THE LAST UPDATE BUT I HAVE A 2 WEEK SKL HOLIDAY SOON SO IF I CAN FINISH ALL MY WORK WITH IN THE FIRST FEW DAYS THEN I WILL UPDATE
          
          I AM LOWK GETTING COOKED BY SKL SO I HAVENT HAD ANY SPARE TIME TO WRITE...
          
          I'VE BEEN THINKING ABT TFILWYOM THO SO HOPEFULY THE WRITING WILL COME ALONG WELL AND SWIFT
          
          ONCE AGAIN IM RLLY SORRY... I LEGIT JUST DISAPPEARED AND NOW I COME BACK AND THERE ARE SO MANY VOTES AND COMMENTS SO TYSM FOR ALL THE SUPPORT GUYS<3333 I LOVE YALL
          
          ANYWAYS, I MISS U GUYS A LOT AND I WILL TRY MY BEST TO GET THE UPDATE UP ASAP
          
          FOR NOW, SEE YALL LATER!!
          
          ~~ISLA <3