@ zi_ziaa5 oh wow Köln is usually a very open city from what I heard but I completely understand what you said cause I'm the same xD
I don't want to be lonely but I enjoy being alone. But that's a good thing, you have friends even if they live in another city. It's nit important to have someone physically by your side important is that your friends understand you and that you're connected.
I do have a few "friends" near my place but it's different, I can't be myself when I'm with them so it doesn't really count as friends.
Stay strong!