@mystictaigooo I definitely know what you mean. When I first shifted for a couple of times, I never thought that the emotions that you feel in your DR could affect your CR so badly. I believed that I could understand that these are two different worlds that I’m living in and that I’m not the same person.
Quickly I realised that it’s very hard to convince your brain.
One thing I did to help myself was, I scripted that all of the emotions/trauma/anything that I feel in my DR as my alter ego—I do not bring back to my CR with me. That contains being in love with someone, missing them incredibly deeply, or just feeling like you’re not home.