I'm sorry for all of this 'suicidal' post, i've been really depressed like alot lately, and i dont have someone to talk about, that's why im letting it out here i can't understand myself for the last few days like i really don't feel like myself, it's really not great tbh. i'm laying here in bed with my thoughts, trying to control myself from self harm. I can't hold back the thoughts of that, but for now i'm trying to stop myself