Saving Her

Chapter 20: Okay

*** Jezebel's POV ***
After we went home from the cemetery, Harry took me out to lunch. He asked me to come on the North America segment of the tour, I, of course, said yes. So now I sit on a hotel bed in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania.

We are about 45 minutes from where Nadya and I grew up. Harry comes into the room.

"You ready to go babe?" He asks. A lot of the girls we went to school with go to college in the area, so we are going to meet up with them at our friend, Mia's, apartment that isn't too far from here.

They don't know that Nadya died. Heck, they didn't know that she had cancer. They also don't know that Harry is my boyfriend and that I'm bringing him. We walk down to the lobby where we meet up with Mark. He smiles at us.

"Ready to brave that madness?" He asks, jerking his head towards the doors. We look over and see the fans screaming and the paps with there cameras flashing already.

"Ready as we'll ever be." Harry responds.

"Let's go then." Mark says. Harry wraps his arm firmly around my waist and we walk out. I pull down my sunglasses as the reporters scream rude questions at us.

We climb into the SUV that they had pulled around for us. We slowly pull away as fans pound on the car. Eventually we make it out and head towards Mia's. We drive for about 20 minutes before we pull up in front of her flat.

We walk up to her floor and I knock on her door. She opens up the door a minute later and as soon as she sees me, she pulls me into a hug. She pulls back and looks over my shoulder.

"So you brought Harry Styles but not Nadya?" She tuts at me. I smile wanly.

"Why don't we sit down and I'll explain." I say.

"Of course, come on in. You guys are the last ones so come on." She smiles at us. We walk down a hall and there sitting on the couch are my best friends from high school.

"Jezzie!" They all yell, jumping up and pulling me into a group hug. I laugh.

"Hi guys." I say and they all pull back. "This is my boyfriend, Harry."

"Yeah, we know." Sami says rolling her eyes at me. "Where's Nadya?"

"You guys might want to sit down." I say softly, looking down at my feet. They all immediately look concerned, but sit.

"What happened?" Izzy asks.

"Nadya died about three months ago." I whisper.

"What?!" Michele asks. "You're kidding, right?"

"I wish." I say laughing humorlessly.

"How did she die?" Becki asks.

"Cancer."

"She had cancer and didn't tell us?" Julianna asks.

"Yes. She was diagnosed our senior year right after I took custody of her." I say. "It's okay though. She's not hurting anymore."

"Was she at least happy?" Julianna asks.

"Yeah. She was. Figure she was dating Zayn Malik so it couldn't be too bad." I say, laughing.

They all laugh with me. We sit around and talk for a couple hours. The girls get to know Harry and we just catch up.

When we return to the hotel, Harry goes to have a meeting with the other boys and I go and sit in the room, not feeling like hanging out. When I was talking with the girls, I got an idea for a song. I start writing.

"I won't see your smile
And I won't hear you laugh
Anymore
Every night
I won't see you walk
Through that door

'Cause time wasn't on your side
It isn't right
I can't say I love you
It's too late to tell you
But I really need you to know

[Chorus:]
Oh baby no
I'll never forget you
I'll never let you out of my heart
You will always be here with me
I'll hold on to the memories baby

Now baby can you hear me
Wherever you may be
Tonight
Are you near me
I need you to be
By my side

'Cause I never said goodbye
It isn't right
I should have said I love you
Why didn't I just tell you
God knows I need you to know

[Chorus]

Somewhere I know you'll be with me
Someday in another time
But right now you're gone
You just vanished away
But I'll never leave you behind

[Chorus]"

I finish and I realize maybe I will be okay. It hurts but I'll be okay.