Life. Probably the scariest word. Or was it death? I mean we all are living to die. Barley any of us are dying to live. From the minute our parents had their one night stand to the day you were conceived, I don't think you were ever asked if that s truly what you wanted. None of us were given an option. We were born out of force. Each and every one of us.
It's basically how society is. We get no say in how we live or the way we live. It's all already planned. In fact you reading these very words right now was probably written as a part of your future. Everything has been planned. The mistakes you make, the people you meet. I don't know about the rest of you but that makes me uneasy. Why is everything so...what's the word. Organised? Why can't we mess some things up for once?
I was practically forced into growing up at an early age. Seeing the arguments and alcohol abuse in my house I had to step up and force myself into being mature and taking care of my sister. Which explains why I get so overprotective over my mom and sister. I have this, urge to protect them however I can.
I feel like all of us, in some way, have faked our personality's. It's easier that way. No one knows what happens behind close doors. In fact your friends life could seem so perfect you fail to notice them struggling to catch up to the rest of the world. Which is why being kind is so important.
We are all just humans. In fact if your not rich, or in politics, chances are your invisible to the world. We're all merely specks of dust floating in space. Then again space is just a dark black void. We all have little bags. Some of our bags may be huge, which means we can carry the weight of anything.
But some of us, even tho are bags are big, we ourselves our weak. It doesn't matter how many stones you fill in a bag you still need to be able to carry the bag. Sometimes we are too weak too remove the stones from the bag which forces us to carry all that weight while living.
In all my years of studying and being a top student, never have I once seen a teacher genuinely talk about mental health and problems like these. Most schools have these talks but they never work. In fact most students are too afraid to come out and say "I'm struggling and I need help". Why are we so scared to ask for help?
The answer is quite simple. We were all brought up in such a way where the only people that can face problems are working adults. As for us kids, we aren't allowed to have problems. Read that again. How is that okay? To completely disregard someone's problems just because they aren't as huge as yours. In fact adults probably have the strength to carry a bad filled with rocks but kids and teenagers. We are still weak.
We get weaker everyone time we are silenced. We get weaker everyone we compare ourselves to others. We are our own enmy. We judge ourselves more that anyone else judges us.
So what makes you think we are fine?
