Prologue
Loathes
The first time I laid eyes on my lamp I still remember how happy I was while unpacking it. It was a gift from my father that he bought from another country. He always spoils me with everything that he can, while my mother support me with everything that I do.
I guess, people change. Happiness do fades.
Hiwalay ang mama at papa ko noong bata pa ako. They choose their own happiness instead of mine. I really didn't understand why did they made me in the first place is they can't commit to be my parents. I still remember the first time me and my mother fought about something, I couldn't remember the exact reason why we fought but that was the worse fight of mine.
Out of frustration my mother reached for a vase and threw it in our family picture and said, "Sana hindi nalang kita naging anak!" Nanlaki ang mata ko the moment I realized what she said.
I moved back trying to figure out what should I reply to that. I'm still a child back then and didn't know what to do so I ran to my room and cried till I fell asleep.
Since that day I loathed my Mom, I hated her for saying that to me. I can't believe that a mother could say that to her child!
Out of all the hurtful words she could say that was the most traumatic words I could hear from her mouth.
Ilang linggo ko siyang hindi pinapansin and every time she try to open up that topic I get to dodge it by reasoning out like I have assignments to do or sasabihin ko na masakit ang ulo ko.
I lost track about my self. I lost weight, my grades drop, I lost hope.
My father, on the other hand, got himself a mistress. At first I couldn't believe it but the time I confirmed it with my two eyes I felt like dying.
He's eating with his mistress in a fancy restaurant that time. Pano ko nalaman na kabit niya? Simple dahil nakita ko pamismo kung paano siya halikan ni Papa sa noo.
May magkaibigan ba o kliyenteng naghahalikan sa noo? Wala!
Hindi manlang sila nagabalang magtago sa mga tsismis. They were too vulgar. And by looking at my father's mistress I know she's the start of my family's distress.
The girl was way more younger than my father. Para na nga siyang kapatid ko! Nakakahiya!
Pati sa paaralan ko kumalat na may ibang babae si Daddy and I was so embarrassed to the point that I don't want to go to school anymore. Wala na akong mukha pang maihaharap!
I really didn't not believe it. Remembering that I was the biggest daddy's girl back then made me realize that happiness wasn't really made for me.
Pinagkaitan ako ng tadhana. Sa murang edad ko palang I get to experience this kind of issues!
My family is chaotic as hell!
Nang nalaman ng mama ko na may kabit ang Papa ko she never wasted a single strap of sweat for my father's mistress instead she was too calm about it. Hindi niya iyon sinugod or what. Respetado ang Mama ko sa lahat ng larangan, naging mabuti siyang asawa, ina, but, she just overworked herself and lost her way to us.
Masyado syang nabulag sa promotion na ibibigay sa kan'ya and guess what?! She got her promotion and at the same time, she also lost her family.
Isang araw nagulat nalang ako noong may pumunta as bahay. Kakagising ko lang noon and the first word that I heard was annulment. It was my mother's lawyer. Silang dalawa ang nag-usap ni Papa while I was sitting on our stairs, trying to sink all the words the lawyer said.
