You gave ME your sweater

Diana

Her response to my compliment wasn't something I didn't expect. Everyone's always staring at her and I never knew how that felt like. 

Although, Heather was really nice the entire lesson. It looked like she was struggling during maths, but she looked good even when she was struggling. 

I helped her solve a few questions, she didn't even get the easy ones. But I knew she had understood a bit because I started to help her. 

Heather - "So Diana, um since we're both new...."

Me - "Yea we can totally be friends, wanna meet outside of school today?"

Heather - "Woah ok ms confident"

I might have blushed or my heart just tap-danced because I've never gotten that compliment. 

Most people only cared about my looks, they never cared about ME. Does that make sense? Ah, confusion. That's one of my flaws, easily noticeable, not proud of it :/ 

Me - "Yeah beauty queen"

She looked down and tried to understand what the hell surds were. 

I kinda regretted saying that after such a long pause...maybe she didn't like me calling her beautiful, because clearly, the entire class kept staring at her every 2 seconds. 

Even the teacher noticed everyone staring because we sat at the back. I don't know about heather but I hated those stares. The kid next to me caught my eye. His back had a keychain with "Conan" written on it? Yea that kid just looked like he wanted to either go vomit or talk to me. Who knows?

*bell rings* 

I got out of class without any interactions and waited outside the school. 

Heather came running towards me, she looked relieved. How can someone look perfect while running, my god...

Heather - " hey"

Me - " hey, let's go get some ice cream?"

She didn't respond but she came along with me, so I guessed the answer was sure. But why didn't she answer? Was she tired? Was I being too outgoing? Oh great

We walked in silence...

When reached the ice cream place and heather seemed excited but she still didn't say anything. 

Me - "Everything okay?"

She only nodded, I was getting a bit worried...

Heather - " Um tell them I want strawberry, I'll just reserve a seat for us"

Me - "Ok cool, hey, I'd like a strawberry and a chocolate", " Yep that's it thank you"

Heather - "Thanks Diana"

I only smiled at her in the fear of being too confident. I sat down and jumped right into my ice cream. 

Me - "Ice cream and summer? What's better?"

Heather - "haha, it's starting to sound like you're in love with ice cream"

Me - "Don't tell anyone, but I am in love"

We laughed like maniacs, ig us the one imperfect thing about us was our laugh. 

Heather - "so you got any interesting stories?"

Me - " Oh hell yea, I had quite a few friends back home, we always went surfing or camping. I remember when we heard rats and whatnot on camp. I got so scared because no matter how much I love adventures, I hate nature."

Heather - " WHAT, WHY"

Me - " Ok beauty queen, calm down. It scares me. Im not saying dogs aren't cute, im just saying im scared of nature. Everything is so unexpected, I don't like things like that."

Heather - "Im totally opposite okay, don't say anything about nature like that again"

Me - "Sure" 

When I looked around,  realised people kept staring at heather even though we were outside, but I don't blame them, she is pretty. Pretty cute? She had blonde hair, brown eyes, sharp nose and the graceful face. Her skin glowed in the sunset and her hair flowed through the wind. Now she's giving me a questionable stare...

Heather - " Hey um be honest, do you like this school?"

Me - "Georgetown high school is the best school I'd been to honestly. I love it here"

Heather - " Oh it's not the same for me, I'm trying to change into a good person, but everything is just so scary.... the stares...people asking me questions...I just, I don't wanna hurt anyone"

Me - "its fine heather, it'll take some time for you to adapt to the school and maybe you'll find your path to change. Just have patience"

Heather - "thanks for the advice, but I wanted to say that I just can't be close to you. I don't want to hurt you"

I didn't need to respond, my face responded. I was so disappointed, I wanted to be closer to her and she doesn't want that. Why and how would heather even hurt me. I know everything is going to be awkward from now on... 

Heather got up and walked away. I could see she wasn't glad she took the decision, but I guess that's what she had to do. 

Pull it together Diana, she did it so she couldn't see me cry and get hurt. But then why become friends in the first place? 

I love heather, I didn't need to convince myself to believe it. And if we would've been friends it would've been easier to tell her. 

I can just hear Luke castellan saying "Life isn't fair". Yea I have a Percy Jackson series obsession. Luke is my favourite character because I relate to him the most...

Finally, I looked around and what the heck, why was the guy who sat next to me in maths here?? I think his name was Conan... Was he following me? Maybe...hopefully not. He was walking towards me...nervously.

 Ok, I needed to leave. This is weird.

Mr Conan looked disappointed but I wanted to avoid human interaction even more after what just happened. Im not going to talk about it ever again.