Mix of all the kidnapping stories b.e.

10

BILLIES POV:
Y/n has been in the surgery for about an hour and a half now all I did was cry.
What if she dosent make it
Its all my fault
I fucked up real bad
Because of fucking clothes
I get it
I would end my life too
Being literally riped out of your life for people like me and forced to do shit
I'm a bitch
It's all my fault
I fucked up
How am I going to gain her trust now
Fuck me
Fuck me!
"FUCK ME!!!"I scream
Finneas is still trying to calm me down

———𝕠𝕟𝕖 𝕙𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕝𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕣———

The doctor came into my room
"Hey Billie I have some good news and bad ones"
"Oh no."
"Which you want first?"
"I don't care,just tell me "
"Okay" he sighed
"Y/n is breathing but her lungs are a bit damaged because there is dry blood there she can't talk we have to try some surgeries on her but there's a 65% chance she dosent make it"
"W-what why"
"What y/n did is really serious I'm sorry Billie"
I just cry and cry and cry some more till I can't anymore

The doctor left and finneas not long after came y/n room which I was staying in
"Hey Billie,I'm sorry for y/n you know even though I don't really know her you like her which means I have to respect that,I feel like she was an angel"
"She was"I say
"The doctor told Me you can see her but doing let her talk if she dosent want to she you or feels uncomfortable just leave she's gone through so much already"
"Ok...do you think she hates me, be honest out the only person I really trust"
"To be honest Billie I think she does did you see what you made her go through think of it on how she sees it,she's alone token away from her family no one she can trust we all just abuse her for stupid things"he says
He pauses a bit and says "should we see her?"
"Yeah"

I walk in her room to see her on the bed wires attached to her she just looks sick and numb she dosent move she then makes eye contact with me
"Hi"
No response
"Oh right you can't speak"
No response
"Listen I'm sorry"
Her heart beat machine thing starts to beep
The doctors come running in
"Billie she can't handle you with her"
"O-ok"
I leave and go to her room and just cry on her bed

She can die Because of me
I didn't do anything
She scared of me
I know sorry won't make up for it
I hate myself
A LOT
I have to gain her trust
At least first be with her in the same room
Oh fuck me
I loved her
I feel empty
Oh what will happen if she dies
don't say that
Oh no
What if I kill mys-

I got cut off by finneas coming in and hugging me I just cry on his chest for what seemed like an eternity
His shirt is now soaked with tears and a bit of snot(LMAOOOOO)
"I feel like shit finneas I want to die"
"Don't worry b she will make it,I know she will,she's strong"

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