Dear Noona | Yang Jungwon

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Dear noona,

I'm not sure what was really happening. But as I opened this book, I couldn't hold myself but cried.

I didn't remember anything.

In my memories, there was noona. As soon as I opened my eyes, I'm at a hospital room.

Then there was a young man besides me, he said his name was Heeseung. I didn't know, but he's kinda stranger to me.

I asked him where's noona. Why noona didn't come to visit me? Why I was at the hospital room? And why I couldn't remember anything?

There was only noona in my head. But the guy named Heeseung explained everything that seemed like a joke to me.

Noona, he said that you were passed away two years ago because you saved me from an accident. I thought it was a joke. I did not want to believe it because the guy was like stranger to me. Maybe he wanted to joke around just to surprise me.

He said that it's been seven months I'm in a coma before I conscious. The guy named Heeseung told me that I got into a car accident and got serious injured of my head which most probably the cause I become amnesia.

Even he told everything, still did not want to believe. I became aggresive and wanted to escape just to meet noona. But I couldn't took actions because Heeseung prevented me from going anywhere since I just got up from coma.

After I got discharged, the guy named Heeseung brought me to somewhere. Somewhere that shook me disbelief. A place where I could see noona's name written on a stone, where noona was buried in the earth.

I couldn't say anything but cried. I rather died on the spot when I got accident and meet noona instead. Why am I the only one did not die?

As soon as I reached home, it's not a home where I used to live with noona. I knew it, Heeseung already explained. I lived in their house after noona left me.

And now here I am, in the unfamiliar room, sitting while writing this diary. The previous page was the last thing I wrote before I got into coma. It's about noona's birthday.

I couldn't remember anything for serious what had happened before I'm in a coma. There were only old memories in my head. That's what happening to me right now.

I hope it's just a dream but seems like it's not.

I guess.. this is my fate.

I don't have a family. Mom, dad and noona left me alone. I don't remember anyone except noona. What's the point I'm still alive then?

Noona, I miss and love you so bad. I just don't know what to do. How can I continue living after this?

Yeah right, life goes on.

As I said, it's my fate. Someone gave me a second chance.

Maybe it's not the time yet to reunion. But soon, we'll be reunited.

Mom, dad, noona, let's meet soon.

yjw