'Who am I kidding?'~ Draco x Hermione

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

Draco's POV

Of course Pansy thought that was funny, she always finds the stupid things funny and it never really makes sense. Sometimes I question why i'm with her but at the same time i kind of love her. I love Pansy although she's not a soft person she helped me through the hardest part of my life.

"Drakey my love? Draco are you ok?" Pansy snapped me out of my thoughts.

"Huh..oh yeah I-I'm ok!" I kissed her and of course she wanted to take it further. "I uhm..No Pans I'm not in the mood!" I had to back away, I really wasn't in the mood right now.

"Ugh, you're never in the mood for me...ever since we came back you've been pushing me away!" She was crying..Crocodile tears.

"Pansy, we've been back 4 hours..no please i'm exhausted and you're not allowed to stay in here at night!" That wasn't exactly true but I wanted peace and quiet.

"Since when are you one for following rules?" she remarked, Of course she asks me this!

"Since I changed...ever thought about that....ever thought that I hate the person I was before, the person my father made me!" I had to tell her I couldn't keep it in anymore.

"How long....How long have you been thinking like this?" She stuttered struggling not to cry, Will she please stop with the questions.

"Since the day I became a Death Eater!" I'm getting angry. She pisses me off when she's like this.

"AND YOU'RE ONLY JUST TELLING ME!?" Great, she's shouting.

"YES I'M ONLY JUST TELLING YOU OK.....I'VE NEVER TOLD ANYONE...YOU HAPPY, I'VE SAT IN SILENCE FOR NEARLY THREE YEARS!" I lost my temper.

"WHY DID YOU NOT TELL ME THREE YEARS AGO DRACO, YOU CAN TRUST ME, I LOVE YOU AND YOU KNOW YOU CAN TELL ME ANYTHING...I FEEL BETRAYED!" Fucking hell she pulls the 'I feel betrayed' card and she's crying her eyes out.

"I'VE NEVER TOLD YOU BECAUSE YOU DON'T CARE...IF I WENT TO YOU FOR COMFORT YOU'D THINK I WAS COMING ON TO YOU AND YOU THINK I WANT SEX.....I DON'T WANT SEX ALL THE TIME PANSY I SOME TIMES WANT MY GIRLFRIEND TO BE THERE FOR ME!" I think I'm near screaming and even I'm crying.

"D...Draco..I'm never going to know if you don't tell me these things, you've never been one to show your emotions so I never think to ask you if you're ok because if I do you tell me to go away, Draco I tried for years but I gave up trying because I didn't want to lose you!" She's lying through her teeth...she's never been good at lying.

"Fine...whatever! Just please leave, I need to be alone!" I needed her gone..not forever just right now.

"Drakey, please let me stay with you...let me help you!" She just put her arms around my waist and tried to kiss my neck....exactly my point.

"PANSY GET OUT THIS IS EXACTLY MY POINT.....YOU JUST WANT SEX!"
She ran out pouring her eyes..again Crocodile tears.

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU STARING AT YOU MUDBLOOD!" She screamed at Hermione who was standing in the doorway of her room.

"OH I'M SORRY PARKINSON....I WON'T STAND IN MY DORM ROOM..... MERLIN'S BEARD!" Hermione has a temper then.

"Pansy just leave please....!" I had to stop a fight breaking out because i'd be blamed for it.

"WHAT SO YOU CAN FUCK HER?!" She screamed at me, that's taking it too far!

"PANSY I DON'T THINK GRANGER IS THE CHEATING TYPE....AND NEITHER AM I SO PLEASE DON'T WASTE YOUR BREATH ON SHIT LIKE THAT!" I shouted back.

Hermione just stood there for a few seconds staring at the recently slammed door before slowly retreating to the kitchen. I wanted to see if she was ok so I followed her.

"I'm so sorry you had to hear that....and I'm sorry she said that to you!" I felt bad since it was my fault...." How much of that did you hear?" I had to ask..

"Most of it...neither of you are very quiet." She glumly mumbled as she made some form of Muggle dish.

"Are you ok? You seem upset by something!"

"Yeah, I'm fine...just reminded me of something!" She mumbled again.

"D...Do you want to talk about it? I mean I understand if you don't, I know i'm not your favourite person!"

"No..No it's fine I'll tell you...can't really tell anyone else!" She put the lid on a pan, turned the hob off andsat on the floor by the fridge. "It reminded me of an argument Ronald and I had before I left....along the same lines of him not caring about how I'm feeling...I'm mean after everything that hap-" She stopped abruptly.

"After what Hermione?" I asked cautiously.

"After that night at the Manor, my parents were killed by Yaxley, and something else that I can't talk about!" She was crying but trying to hide it.

"Hermione, I'm so sorry....I knew Yaxley was killing Muggles but I never knew two of them were your parents, I really am sorry!"

"I-It's not your fault..You weren't to know!" She mumbled AGAIN.

~Time skip brought to you by Pygmy Puffs~

Hermione slowly got up after a long 5 minutes of complete silence and put the now cold pan in the fridge. "I'll see you in the morning!" She moped upstairs and shut her door slowly.

There is something seriously wrong with her...she doesn't seem herself...and it when she said there was something else she couldn't tell me she looked like she wanted to scream....should I be scared for her because it seems like she is scared of something and I don't think it's anyone at Hogwarts.