Seducing my Brother's Girlfriend

Chapter 3

After 5 years. Finally, I'm done with my study.

For the past 5 years wala akong ibang ginawa kundi ang tumutok sa pagaaral and I also work. Yep, nag part time ako, fast food crew, dishwasher, cashier I even tried being a delivery woman.

I enroll to a lot of electives, kaya halo halo ang skills ko. I tried welding, painting, sculpture and pottery. I tried studying a lot of languages, Cantonese, Nihongo and French.

I make sure that I always have a full schedule, para may dahilan ako na di magisip, because a moment of rest is also the moment of lost.

It took me a year before I can sleep without crying. Halos sa apartment ko na tumira si Rośe just to make sure that I am okay. Rośe trully save my sanity. Jisoo also make it to a point na nakakausap ko sya for 1 hour everyday. She become my therapist, kahit na nagaaral pa lang talaga sya ng psychology.

Thank to their help, I made it. Hindi na ako nakakatulog sa pagod sa pagiyak, hindi na ako gumigising at maiiyak nanaman. I learn to go through everyday without crying.

I also avoided a lot of things.Thai food, Siamese, dancing, cats, anything that reminds me of Lisa.

That is why for that 5 years, hindi ako bumalik ng Pinas at sa twing maririnig ko ang pangalan nya pag tumawag ang parents ko binabago ko agad ang topic.

Dahil alam, at aminado ako na tumigil man ang mga mata ko sa pagluha hindi naman tumigil ang sakit.

A lot may not understand. They will not understand why I am so mess up because of someone that I only met in one vacation. Kahit ako sa sarili ko di ko rin magets, bakit nga ba ang laki ng epekto sakin ni Lisa, bakit nga ba ang sakit sakit ng katotohanan na di na sya sakin.

Is it because she's my first kiss? O dahil sya ang first love ko? O dahil umasa ako?

Jisoo told me it simply because I love her. It doesn't matter kung sya ang first o second o hundred of kiss ko, it doesn't matter kung sya ang first, fourth or nth love ko. I was hurt and it is painful because I love her, and I am still hurting because I still love her.

Rośe told me that time heals wounds and scars, but it is the wounds and scar that is not visible that takes a lot of time to heal. So I just have to suck it up and try to live as happy as I possibly can.

And as ironic as it is, my other emotional support is my brother. At first ayoko talaga syang kausapin but in the end nanaig pa rin yung bond na meron kaming magkapatid. We both went through a lot after all, were half siblings at idagdag pang halos 1 month lang ang tanda nya sakin, it really became a big issue sa family namin. V doesn't know anything that happen between me and Lisa, hindi ko rin sinabi sa kanya kung anong sitwasyon ko pero siguro dahil sa magkapatid kami ramdam nyang nasasaktan ako. Hindi sya nagtanong, hindi sya nag usisa he just keeps of telling me alot of story. Hindi rin nya brining up si Lisa, the first time that he did I got angry, since then hindi ko na narinig si Lisa sa kanya.

"So kailan mo balak mag impake?" Tanong sakin ni Jisoo na naka tingin sakin habang nakaupo ako sa kama.

Since tapos na ako magaral kailangan ko na bumalik ng Pinas, halos lahat ng gamit ko napadala ko na sa Pinas mga iilan na damit ko na lang ang naiwan. While Jisoo will stay here in my apartment, she decide to work here in New Zealand, of course para makasama na nya si Rośe na nagaaral pa. At since wala ng gagamit nitong apartment ko, pinahiram ko na muna sa kanya.

"Do I really have to go?" Natanong ko bigla.

"Of course, di mo ba namimiss si Tito at Tita? Si V?" Balik tanong naman si Jisoo.

"I." I hesitate, but still continue. "I miss them, but..."

I miss them but going back also means I'm going to see her.