Black

A blonde light in the dark

First of all, yes, I'm still here, I made it. I have to mention that it wasn't easy but when I saw all the comments it became so hard. People even texted me, I love you so much guys <3 Even though I don't enjoy this life anymore, I'll try to stand above the people who ruined it. I will try to move on, to make it better It's gonna be a very very hard joruney but i'm pretty sure that I will make it with all your support. Again, thank you so much guys! Ily!

Soo back to the book now haha. I decided to start a new book, again, oops- This book will be some different from my other books, it's based on my life. I write this book to process some stuff I deal with and I hope that it will help me. Please remember that it's all fanfiction! I'm just writing about my life but then from another view!

Btw, I know that some of the girls can talk in Dutch with each other but it's quite annoying to translate it every time. So I just write in English.

Enjoy!
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Living a happy life, isn't that a thing which everyone wants? Just living a relaxed life which you enjoy, not a life which you actually want to end... Football player Daniëlle van de Donk, who plays for Arsenal and for the Netherlands as international, always lived a happy life. Of course there were some things where she struggled with, but who doesn't? That's normal isn't it? But a half year ago her life changed incredibly, her joy in life blurred away with the day and she started doing things which she never did before...

Daan POV:

''Viv can you bring me some food please, I'm hungry.'' I've been laying in my bed for the entire day now and I really don't feel like coming out. ''Dan you already ate a whole fucking pizza, a sandwich, fries, 2 chocolate bars and an apple, how can you still be hungry? You need to stop eating that much, it isn't healthy anymore,'' Viv said from down the stairs. ''WELL THEN, NEVERMIND, I WILL STAY IN MY BED FOR THE REST OF THE DAY AND I DON'T WANT ANY OF YOU TO TALK TO ME!'' I screamed, I feel so angry. Why can't people just listen to me, I just ask her for some food but no she first haves to give me a whole fucking speech. Damn.

Jill POV:

When I opened the front door I heard Dan screaming from upstairs. ''What's wrong with Dan?'' I ask Viv while I take off my coat. ''I don't know Jill, I don't know.. She already acts for a month like this. She's probably just in a bad mood, but I have to mention that she annoys me like hell. That she's in a bad mood doesn't mean that she needs to act to us like this. I swear if she doesn't stop it I'm gonna scream the hell out of her,'' Viv said, I notice that her anger level rises with the second. I walk towards her and sigh. ''Don't worry, she will be fine soon. Don't let her piss you off like this okay? It's just Dan,'' Viv gives me a small smile and it seems like she calms down. ''Should I check out if Dan's okay?'' Viv nods at me.

I walk up the stairs and knock at Dan's room. ''Daan can I come in for a sec?'' I ask politely. ''No leave me alone please,'' Daan said with a small voice. I hear some sniffing sounds coming from behind the door. It sounds like she's crying. ''Daan I just want to check if you're okay hun,'' I say. ''Jill, I told you, leave me alone please,'' she says. I let out a big sigh, ''Okay then, see you later, take care...'' I walk down the stairs and join Viv at the couch to watch a movie.

Daan POV:

I wake up from my alarm and sigh. Training starts in 2 hours, I don't even want to go. I'm tired, I just want to stay in bed all day. With big reluctance I succeed coming out of my bed. I put on my training stuff and walk downstairs. ''Goodmorning,'' Viv and Jill say. I don't answer them, I feel too tired. I fall down on the couch and close my eyes again. ''You need to eat and get ready, you know that right?'' Viv says. ''Hm.''

After laying on the couch for like 20 minutes I get up and head to the bathroom. My hair is a total mess but I don't feel like fixing it. I put it in a simple bun and go downstairs again without having my make-up done. ''Y'all ready to go?'' Jill asks while playing with the car keys. ''Yes I am,'' I say.

When we arrive at the training complex we all take a seat at the big table where we always start or day. Joe walks in and to my biggest surprise he walks with a blonde girl.

''Welcome back girls! I hope you've had a good rest because this will be a hard new season! I'm happy to say that we have a new teammate joining or team! I hope she will feel welcomed quickly! Would you like to tell something about yourself Beth?'' Joe says. I didn't really listen to what he said, I could only focus on the beautiful blonde girl who stood in front of me.

''Well I'm Beth mead, I played for Sunderland and when I got an offer from Arsenal I thought it would be a big chance in my career so I accepted it! I hope that I will get to know you all some better and that I will make new friends. I'm really excited to play for Arsenal,'' the blonde girl said. I couldn't keep my eyes off her beautiful ocean blue eyes. She seems so nice, loving, pretty, just a perfect girl.

''Dan, Dan. Earth to Daniëlle?'' I suddenly see a hand waving in front of me, it's Viv. ''Oh, uh, what?'' I feel so awkward omg- Everyone starts to giggle and I turn entirely red. Even the blonde girl giggles. ''Someone's catching feelings?'' Katie says. ''Fuck off Katie,'' I try to defend myself. I don't like it to be laughed at, not at all.

Beth POV:

I feel really nervous but somehow the beautiful brunette in front of me calms me down a bit... She's so pretty, I feel quite bad for her, I shouldn't have laughed at her. She felt so awkward.

After a few minutes we walked to the field. It's so more professional than Sunderland's training complex was. We line up some balls and start with some shooting on the goal.

Training's done and I'm totally exhausted. Good for me, I'm not the only one, everyone gasps for air and are totally exhausted.

I see the brunette girl walking on my way to the changing room. I run to her with the last energy that I've got left. ''Hey,'' I say, totally out of breath. Oh Beth what are you doing, you're embarrassing yourself so much. ''Hey,'' the brunette girl replied while giggling a bit. ''You look tired,'' she says while giggling even more. I feel myself turning red. C'mon Beth, get your shit together. ''I uh, I'm sorry for laughing at you. I shouldn't have done that, you felt so awkward,'' I say. ''It's play hun, can't be mad at such a pretty girl as you,'' she says and she gives me a wink. Oh god I feel like I can faint any time. She turned around and walked away, giving me a smirk to finish it.

This is gonna be a hard year... 

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Soo this was the first chapter, I hope you guys liked it! I enjoyed the writing a lot, so yeah I hope it's kinda readable x) 

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