My Life Is Worse Than Yours...

Chapter Eight

**trigger warning in this chapter for mentions of death, car accidents**

Message Received 17th August at 6:40pm:

"Harry, it's me. Please call me back when you get this. I just got home. I feel so terrible for how I treated you, I hope you know I didn't mean it like that. I'm so sorry. Just call me back."

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Message Received 17th August at 8:24pm:

"Harry I need to talk to you and I don't want to do this over a a voice mail message. Please ring me back." 

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Message Received 17th August 9:37pm: 

"Hi, it's Louis again. Please call me, I want to apologise properly. Please. I am so so sorry." 

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Message Received 18th August 8:45am:

"You may have already left for work this morning, but I just wanted to talk to you. I can never apologise enough. I am going to go to Daisy and Phoebe's shop today at lunch if you want to join me? Harry, I-. Well, just call me back later on." 

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Message Received 18th August 5:29pm:

"Okay, I am going to say this over the phone because it cannot be left unsaid. This is all my fault. I am sorry for taking my anger at Eleanor out on you. I am sorry for unloading all my problems onto you without even thinking. I am sorry for thinking that my own method of grieving or coping is the only way to get by. I promise to never do this again, I cannot bare this split between us. I will understand and listen to all that you tell me, just let me try and prove it to you. I am done making excuses for my appalling behaviour. Um... Yeah... Please call me back, Haz." 

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Message Received 18th August 10:58pm: 

"Goodnight, Harry."

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Message Received 19th August 10:58am: 

"I don't know if you will be awake yet, but I just wanted to call and see how you were doing. They miss you at Tavern Tomlinson; you don't have to go with me, I just thought I would tell you that they miss your goofy grin. Give me a call back when you can." 

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Message Received 20th August 7:18pm:

"Harry, I really miss you. I want to hear your voice, even if it is to shout at me. I deserve it. The Shining is on TV at 8, thought you might like to watch it. I'm going to, we could call like we usually do."

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Message Received 20th August 11:02pm:

"That movie still scares the shit out of me. I won't be sleeping tonight. Please give me a call when you can." 

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Message Received 21st August 10:14pm:

"I saw someone in the shop yesterday buying our karaoke machine; I was kind of jealous, I'll admit... Look, Harry... I was so wrong. Please tell me what I can do to fix this. I am done making excuses for myself. It wasn't Eleanor, it wasn't even her husband; I had no right talking to you like that. Whenever you feel like it, just give me a call. I'd-. I'd just really like to talk to you about it. To talk it through. I miss you. I won't call any more, just know that I am worried about you." 

Message Received 23rd August 2:19pm:

"Hey Harry, Niall rang me from work today asking if I had seen you. Please tell me you are not skipping work because of me. Let me know if everything is okay? Or at least give Niall a ring, he is very worried about you."