Guitarist (One Direction FanFiction)

Twenty

N A T A L I E

One Month Later

I was scrolling through Twitter while brushing my teeth. Halfway through the month I've been getting the worst hate ever. Luke and I broke up because we were both really busy but we are still very good friends.

I don't think we've gotten over it. I sighed. I started therapy from cutting again. Niall has been worried sick. My concerts are getting less popular and not many people are buying tickets. My CD's are doing good either.

Simon put me down to just doing opening acts. Twice I've been booed off stage. I was skipping school today. I was doing something else.

With a knife.

Pills.

A chair.

A rope.

And regret.

N I A L L

I went upstairs in our house with a tray of food for Natalie. Luke and the 5SOS and the rest of One Direction are downstairs. When I opened the door I dropped the tray and screamed.

All I saw was Natalie. Hanging from the ceiling. I fell to my knees and everyone was upstairs in a matter of seconds. I was sobbing so badly I could barely breath. Liam was trying to talk to the police through sobs.

Luke cut the rope she was hanging from and listened to her breathing. "She's still a-alive." He whimpered and Zayn was hugging me rocking me back and forth. "It's okay Niall." He said and I kept sobbing.

Paramedics came in and took Natalie away as we followed the ambulance with our car. "F-First our M-Mum! A-And now m-my s-sister!" I sobbed into Zayn's shirt. "Wait, you Mum?" Liam asked wiping his face then focusing back on the road.

"S-She died." I sobbed and they rubbed my back. Harry looked distant completely distant. We finally came to the hospital and we rushed in but weren't allowed to see her. "Natalie Horan?" A doctor called.

We all stumbled over and he motioned us to sit. We did so and he sat across from us and took a deep breath. "She doesn't have much time. We are estimating about an hour or less. You may see her." He said and showed us to her room.

When we went in I broke into sobs again and so did Luke. She was staring up at the ceiling. I raced to her side and grabbed her hand. She looked at me and smiled weakly. "I'm sorry." She whispered and I felt tears stream down her face.

"Those fans can be proud." She said and I grew angry. She slid a note to me and I kissed her forehead. I moved and sobbed into Zayn's chest again. Luke stood by her and he tenderly kissed her.

"I never got over you." Natalie said smiling sadly. "I didn't either." Luke said and Natalie held his hand. "Thank you guys. For a life. That was worth living. But it's my turn." She said and I sobbed harder.

"I'll see Mum again." She said and I smiled weakly between sobs. Her heart rate got slower. "Stay strong. Please. Keep going, make music. I'm not someone who should be grieved on everyday." She said tears streaming down her face.

"I love you Natalie." I said touching her cheek. She kissed my wrist leaving a blood stain from her chapped lips. But I didn't care. "Carry on with life. Just don't forget me." She said and we nodded.

"To my heart, you're the only ones who held the key. I'll be watching over all of you from the clouds above. Sending down the purest and whitest doves." She said smiling a bit and we all kissed her forehead. "I'm sorry Natalie." Harry sobbed. "I forgive you Harry. Stay safe. Be strong." She said kissing his forearm.

"I love all of you boys. For infinity and beyond." She said smiling and I kissed her forehead again.

"And sometimes I wonder, did I deserve this life."