Ruined

chapter 3

Asami

I ruined everything.

I ruined my relationship with my son. He should have never been witness to what he saw, and it was my fault.

I ruined the family I fought so hard to have by my side. For what? A fling with a woman who is on her way home now. Someone I absolutely had no feeling for.

I know this will destroy my relationship with Korra and possibly end our marriage.

"What are you going to do?"

Toshi had stopped crying and his face seemed to be blank from any emotion except for his voice.

I hadn't heard Toshi sound so child-like in a long time. I could see he wanted to stay angry, but his tone told me what I needed to do.

It was the same voice he had when he was five and he broke my satomobile model that was on my desk. No matter how hard he tried he couldn't to put it back together and finally approached me in tears.

"I'm sorry Mom, I dropped it."

He held it up in his cute little hands as I took it from him.

"You know what I am going to do, Toshi?"

He shook his head.

"I'm going to fix it because that's what Mommy does," I said as I placed a finger on his little nose.

"I fix things."

His smile was beautiful and a reflection of Korra's. I showed him not only how to fix the toy model but began to build a few with him.

"I'm going to fix this Toshi," I told him, but I knew I wouldn't get the same smile from his childhood.

"How?"

He stared into my eyes. All his anger was gone.

"My heart hurts so bad I can only imagine how Momma Bear" his voice broke with the nickname he gave her, "how is she going to be okHow can you fix this?"

I wiped the tear that crept down his cheek, but he moved his face away.

"Hey. I'm still your Mom and I'm not letting this ruin us," I said it with so much conviction it almost seemed as if I believed it.

But his blue eyes just looked at me.

He didn't believe it.

"Go back to sleep. You still have an hour before you have to get up. I I'm going to talk to your Mother."

He rolled over away from me, but I knew he wouldn't sleep. How could he?

I walked back into the bedroom and saw Korra awake. I could see the worry on her face as I sat on the edge of the bed.

"Did he talk to you?"

I nodded.

She crawled towards me and I felt her body wrap warmly against my back.