My Possessive Dom

Chapter 22

With it finally being the weekend and the day of the dance I feel so giddy with excitement that I wake up at 6 and I can't sleep, just watch the minutes tick by. I look up at the ceiling fan and consider texting Jake. I realized when I was at the dress shop with Caleb that the way he made me feel when I walked out in my dresses to show him was too pure to keep doing what I was doing to him. I decided I didn't want Jake because Caleb deserved better. And with only 3 weeks left here I want to appreciate all the time I get with him. I realized when Caleb beamed and took my hand and spun me around and told me how beautiful that I was that somebody who could walk me around like a dog on the floor and gain enjoyment from my discomfort like he could, couldn't truly love me in the sweet way Caleb could. It's worse that he did it out of spite, just to make me feel low when I was really new to this whole thing. I thought I would've gotten over it by now, but I was just too new and he should've known.

I open my closet to see my dress hanging there. Any chance I get I go and look at it because of how beautiful it is. I knew from the moment I tried it on that it would be my fairytale dress, and perfect for the occasion. I didn't even let Caleb see. I want him to see me in it when I'm fully ready and dazzling. The top is a spaghetti strap lace top with cups at the breasts, almost like lingerie, but not see through. Black tulle cascades down the rest of the length. With my heels on it'll be a couple inches from the floor.

I settle in bed again, but realize I need to do this now. I won't be able to give myself fully to Caleb tonight and enjoy this experience if he isn't the only person on my mind.

I pick up my phone off the bedside table and open my messages to Jake. I see his text asking to be my dom and think of the punishment that ensued. I wouldn't mind being over Caleb's knee again, but without all the actually being in trouble stuff.

"Can we meet by the tree in between our dorms? Now." I text.

"Be out now." He sends back immediately.

Can he not sleep either?

I pull on my slippers and wrap a blanket around me. Even though it's summer, the morning is dewy and wet with a little bit of fog.

I walk to the tree and see Jake waiting in his pajamas. I have thought about this conversation in my head so many times but now its all gone, just a blank piece of paper.

"Hey Liv," Jake says as he leans in for a kiss.

I pull back and look at him and shake my head. I'm trying to find the words. I used to like when he called me that, but since my realization it feels like poison.

"So it's not one of those talks huh?" He asks.

"What talks?"

"The ones where the girl and the guy realize it should've been them all along."

"No, it isn't." I say, realizing this is harder than I thought it would be. "This has to stop. It's wrong and not fair to Caleb. It's not fair to me."

"It isn't fair to me either. I didn't mean to fall in love with you," He says as he pulls my face up to his and kisses me. This time I don't give in and I pull back, not kissing him back.

"This is going to stop. The special treatment in class is going to stop. We'll do whatever we are told to. Nothing more and nothing less."

I remember the words from the multiple times I went over them in my head, it's finally coming back.

"Where is this coming from?" He asks, his sincere eyes doing nothing for me, I've already made up my mind.

"Me. It's coming from me." I say. I've made my decision.

I turn around and I walk away, I quietly open the door back up and run to my bed. My heart is pounding and I don't think I'll be able to go back to sleep. At least it'll make falling asleep tonight easier.