above/side is a gif of my queen
~Recap~
I took out a picture of us holding hands. He was wearing a pattern grey sweater and I wore a black one and I had black nail polish on. It was my favourite picture out all.
"Will it make you happy if I did it?" He asked morosely, I took in a breath.
"Yes." I lied.
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Selena's POV
"No, you're lying. I know when you're lying Selena." I shook my head.
"I'm not lying," I stared at the photo.
"Tell me that you want me to get married. Say it to my face." He pressed, I looked up at him, tears visible in his eyes. I took in a breath.
"I want you to get married." He shook his head.
"I don't believe you."
"What is there not to believe? I want you to get married so this pain can end. All of this!" I choked back on tears.
"Tell me one thing, why should I get married and why can't I date you? Officially." He asked.
"Because, the public. I don't want to be the reason for your and Perrie's breakup. I don't want to get hate! I don't want to be a victim." I sucked in a breath. "I don't care if I'm not happy. I've never cared if I was, this is for you Zayn. For you to be happy."
"You care about what people's opinion instead of being happy? Don't you want to be happy?" I shook my head "why not?"
"Because, I'm tired of being let down. You let me down, Justin's let me down, my own mother has let me down too." Tears brim my eyes "and I'm so sick of crying! I hate feeling vulnerable. Just get married Zayn, be happy. For me." I looked into his eyes.
"I-I can't, marrying Perrie will only make it worse. I planned on leaving her, today while we're on break." My eyes widen. "I should've told you at the hotel, I know."
"Zayn why are you-"
"For you. Everything I've done, I did it for you. It's always been for you, Selena, you and only you. I love you, I have always loved you, I will always love you."
"I love you too, but why are you going to do it?" He sighed and looked at the floor then back at me.
"I'm tired. I'm tired of Perrie trying to be perfect. She rants and uses my money for her advantages, she never loved me for myself like you did. She just liked my money." I nodded understanding now. "Please tell me you understand."
"I understand Zayn, but you do have to suffer the consequences." he nodded.
"Come on, I'm going to end this." He pulled my arm but I let go. He gave me a confused look.
"I think it's best if I stay up here, for you know, safety reasons." He laughed and I smiled.
"Alright, I'll be back soon. And please don't mind the shouting from downstairs." I nodded and he pecked my lips, walking out closing his door behind him. I put the chest box on his drawer, and sat down on his bed.
I looked up at his wall seeing one of his posters with the words 'stress reliever' bolder letters and in a circle 'bang head here' I laughed, imagining and young Zayn actually doing that.
"It's because of her isn't it!" I jumped to the unexpected shouting. I heard faint words, probably from Zayn trying to calm Perrie down.
"I don't care! I know you still love her more than you love me! We're getting married Zayn, this wasn't supposed to happen!"
"Perrie calm down, she has nothing to do with us."
"If she's here then yes she does. Ever since she showed up to the mall that day I knew it wasn't going to be like before Zayn. I knew she would change your mind. And she did!"
"Perrie, I love you. But I don't feel it anymore. You never loved me, even if you did I only did those things to drive her away yet Selena still stayed and dealt with all the pain. You and I did the damage now we both suffer it."
"You won't suffer anything, you have her! I'll be the one suffering.!" I stayed silent and walked out of the room, the shouting became more permanent the closer I went to it. I walked down the stairs, stopping half way and saw Zayn's family standing together at the end of the stair case while Perrie and Zayn argued in front of them.
"Please, like you'll be suffering." Zayn rolled his eyes. I cleared my throat before Perrie could interject and all heads turn to me. I continued walking down the stairs and passed the family and stood in between the couple. "Baby, what are-" I cut in.
"None of you suffered anything. I'm the one who suffers. Let's make that clear. I suffered heartbreak" I looked at Zayn "and betrayal" I looked at Perrie whose face softened and held guilt "all at the same time."
"Perrie you were my best friend, now look where we are now. It's not Zayn's fault that he made me suffer, it was also your fault. You were my best friend, and best friends don't do that to each other How could you be so boastful of yourself? Zayn is not something you feed fame off of, he's a person not an object." I took in a breath.
"Either way, I'm not going to let him do that to me, for someone like you." I nodded taking in her words.
"I know that I could never be like you, I understand that. Nevertheless he still loves me. If he doesn't want to be like you then you can't force him to. He made a decision and as a fiance you're supposed to oblige to it but since you're not anymore you still have to respect peoples' wishes." I stared into her eyes and she rolled them, taking off her ring and throwing it at my chest; making it drop to the floor.
"Whatever, I'm tired of this. And you're right I only used him for the fame. You can have him, but do know that now you have to suffer the consequences with the media and management." she smirked and walked out.
"Sel," I turned around to face the man i love, I gave him a smile and hugged him. "I love you so, so much. You have no idea how much." he mumbled against my neck and I gave a little laugh, kissing his cheek.
"Selena dear, are you alright?" I heard Trisha asked, I let go of Zayn and gave her and the rest of the family a reassuring smile.
"I am now."
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hey... i updated, it maybe confusing yeah, i figured that out but ehh
i scared my friend on friday, you know who you are, and im so proud and
enjoy
karen
