perrie is so lucky to have this one, like she can get free lap dances when asked (above/side)
~Recap~
"It's okay Zayn," I hugged him as he shook his head at my response.
"No it's not okay at all. I just wanted to say I'm sorry. So fucking sorry for ruining your life. For each and every thing I did to you without knowing." I felt his arms being wrapped around my waist tightly as if he was afraid I will leave him again. He nuzzled his face into my shoulder silently sobbing. "I love you Selena and I'm trying to make things work between us. Just please don't leave this-me ever again. I'm so fucking sorry."
"I forgive you."
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Selena's POV
What happened last night has been the greatest night I've ever had. I was currently having breakfast with the boys and wasn't paying attention, my mind kept rewinding last night. Never have I seen Zayn pour his heart out.
I mean I've seen him done it, once. When we dated back then, those were the good days before he became harmful.
~Flashback~ (jesus, it's been while)
"God I love you." My eyes widen at Zayn's words. I sat up from the picnic mat we were just laying on under a big willow tree.
"Y-you do?"I asked looking down at him, he sat up and took my hands into his. Staring deeply into my eyes.
"Yes Selena, I do. I love you after all that we've been together. You make me smile all the time whether I'm out with friends or at home or even with you, you make my heart race. I can't take my eyes off of you, knowing that if I did then I would miss out on something you did. I don't want to lose you at all, you're my happiness. Fucking hell you light up my world (like nobody else, everybody sing it with me!) each and every single day. I love you so much." I smiled while he brought up one hand and placed it on my cheek lightly stroking it.
He leaned in and placed his lips on top of mine. Forging our lips into one, he skidded his tongue along my bottom lip requesting me to open up. I did and his tongue wriggled in my mouth surveying every junction of it. Once out of breath we pulled away, with me flustered and embarrassed from our heated moment.
"You're so fucking gorgeous," I blushed and lightly shook my head "don't deny it love, because you are like that Christina Aguilera song said: you are beautiful in every single way. Yes, words can't bring you down, so don't you bring me down today." He sang and hooked a loose strand of my hair behind my ear, "I'd be an idiot to hurt you, hell I couldn't imagine that happening. I promise. But if I ever hurt you, cheat on you, or abused you then you'll be better off without me." He weakly smiled but I frowned.
"That won't happen, and we'll make sure that it won't. Even if it does happen then I won't leave you." His brows furrowed.
"Why not?"
"Because I love you so much Zayn, and I'll never be able to do that, we were friends and now we're dating, nothing will stop me from leaving you." His smile widen and he placed a gentle kiss on my forehead.
"I'm so lucky to have you with me. To call you mine."
~End of flashback~
"Selena?" I snapped out of my trance as Liam called my name.
"Yeah?" I responded looking at him and the other four.
"You okay? You seem to be in deep thought." I nodded continuing eating my cereal, while humming to some tune.
"You are beautiful in every single way.." Niall sang and looked at me as I realized that I was humming Beautiful by Christina Aguilera.
"One of the most inspirational songs ever made." Harry commented. We all nodded along except for Zayn who stared at me, wide eyed.
"Well I'm done with breakfast, I'll be in my room if you need me." I announced and placed my bowl in the sink walking out of the kitchen and into mine a Zayn's room.
I sat down on the bed going through Twitter on my phone, looking at tweets and most of them mostly contained the ship name 'Zaylena' on it. I read some:
@Zaylenashipper: (this is actually a username on wattpad that I came across with) tbh my main ship was #Zerrie but ever since @selenagomez came on tour and this 'zaylena' thing trended im totally shipping them 24/7 #Zaylenashipper
@selshining: #Zaylena has to happen, and hopefully will happen soon.
@zerrie4ever #Zaylena will never happen, @selenagomez isn't as pretty as @PerrieLittleMix #Zerrieshipper
I closed my phone after that last tweet, maybe that person is right, Zayn and I will never be together officially and Perrie is prettier, she's actually more beautiful than me.
"Don't let those kind of tweets beat you down, love." I heard Zayn's voice from a distance. "Everyone gets them." He said and sat down next to me.
"Thanks, I'll try to keep that in mind." I muttered and tried to stand up only to be pulled back down. "Yes? What is it that you want?" I asked with a light sarcastic tone.
"You. I want you, to know that I love you so fucking much." He closed his eyes and drew in a breath before opening back his eyes "You're so beautiful, I'd be an idiot to hurt you, hell I couldn't imagine that happening."
"Y-you remembered?" I asked stunned that he remembered what he said years back.
"I never forgot. That day I told you that I love you, I've never been happier all my life what ruined our relationship was when I made all those promises and broke them repetitively." he sighed.
"I-I've never blamed you, I loved you. And I still do. I was you're rock as you were mine. And I still am your rock." I spoke metaphorically.
"I must one shitty rock for you," I shook my head in denial "be honest, since when have I ever supported your decision?" I stayed silent "exactly."
"You supported my decision when I left..." I muttered the last part of my sentence while looking at him.
"I did that so you could be happy and it turned out that we both weren't."
"I guess we're both shitty rocks then." I rested my head on his bare shoulder, he kissed the top of my head and wrapped an arm around my shoulders.
"Yeah, I guess we are."
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updated!! i wrote this after i watch american horror story and tbh im scared of my own house now. taissa farmiga is gorgeous af...
evan peters is bae, okay?
karen
