Personal trainer|| b. kotaro

18

THE WEATHER WAS nice giving both teens warm rays of sunshine and a mild breeze passing by. They both stood on a bench, far away from the windows of the school, so that no one cand call them out for ditching their classes. Despitr him wanting to talk with her, he was really silent, playing nervous like a little girl with his fingers not daring to even look at the (h/c) head.

"Care to tell me what you wanted so badly to talk about?" she finally broke the silence eyeing the grey haired male

He sighed finally looking into her eyes, trying to look for even a small glimpse of emotion so that he may know hot to handle this.

"I heard what you said today, in the hallway"

"So? What about it?" she said a bit ashamed of it

"It doesn't bother me, but it got me thinking" he said looking away from her

"Spill it Kou" she sighed in exasperation

"I am the guy you liked, aren't I?" he said now facing her

"Took you long enough to figure it out" she said quietly

     The situation Y/N found herself in was for sure not a very pleasent one, but she had to admit it at one or another point. And besides the deed has been done, so it's not like there was something worse that can happen, right?

"Damn it" he said in frustration as he tugged his black roots

    She was shocked to say at least by his weird reaction to something as small as a fair confession, that it wasn't even the first time she did it.

"What was that? I told you already, like a few days ago. Why are you acting like this now?" she said with anger

"Because I don't think I know what I feel about you and it makes me so angry at myself for literally not thunking enough about you when I did everything that I did. I should have tought better about it before I fucked you...I shouls have tought about the way you felt towards me...if I was able to return the feelings" he said fureowing his brows

"So you regret it?" she asked not sure that she wanted to hear the answear

"No. I don't. I just wished I was more careful when choosing my toughts so now maybe I would have know the real way I feel towards you"

"What do you mean Kou?" she asked since at this point she was pretty much confused

"I don't know if I have feelings for you Y/N, but I know I like you and I just get seem to get it right. I don't want to hurt you, but I want to go on with out things, and I don't be just sleeping with each other, I mean hanging around, joking, smiling with you and everything else"

    To anyone else it might have seemd like a confession of love, but to Y/N it seemd like a teen not knowing what was going trough his head. And it was exactly that, a confused teen who wished to not hurt anyone, not even himself.

"Kou..." saying his name was just a way ofnot staying silent

"Y/N could you please wait for me to figure it out? Just a bit longer?" he said giving her a faint smile as he cupped her face in his hands

    She placed her small hands on top of his and smiled back as small tears formed in the corners of her eyes. It hurted on one side knowing that he might confuse the sexual pleasure with liking or love. But on the other side she felt happy knowing that the boy she loved may have returned her feeling after such a long time.

"Of course. I will wait for you Kou" she said pressing her lips gently onto his

    Two teens who were caught up in the mercyless love life of highschoolers. Two teens who knew nothing about sex but yet decided to do it, two teen who haven't explored their own emotions but were expecting the other one to understand theirs. At the end of the day there was nothing left in their small space but their own mind, which now was clouded with toughts who never seemd to sit up right.

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i want to say that there are going to be two more chapters to this book
also i wanted to ask if you want an angsty or a happy ending cause I have two versions of it and also a mixed one¿

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