Tainted Love (SwaggerSouls x Reader)

Chapter One

Hiraeth POV:
I had just gotten off work and it was currently midnight, I slowly walked to my car hoping when i got home Lucas would be asleep (though he never was). I got into my red ford mustang convertible and slowly headed to the hellhole I live in.

My life wasn't always bad. In high school I had top grades, I was the captain of the girls basketball team and I fell in love with a little nerd who sat next to me on the bus. Though school was like heaven my home life was never the best. My brother Cam was a stoner even in high school, yet in my parents eyes he was always the better one. I was an accident while he was planned. He got a job in high school while I focus on grades and basketball. I never blamed him I truly did love him. He was my saving grace sometimes.

My boyfriend Lucas always reminded me of my father. To both of them I could never be prefect. I was a whore who had the brain of a goldfish. My mother was never as bad as my father and I knew she loved me and it hurt her to see how he treated me, but she could never do anything. When i was younger I hated her for it, but now I understand. He was hurting her much more than he had ever to me.

Enough about my past time to get back to the present. I'm on the short drive home when my favorite song comes on. On a good day my father would put this song on and we would all just have a good time and be a happy family. I started to sing the words slightly as it had been awhile since I heard this song.

Sometimes I feel I've go to

My father always put on Marilyn Manson's version.

Run away, I've got to

I feel like he would've been a pretty cool dude if he didn't drink as much.

Get away

By now I feel soft tears running down my cheeks as my vision get blurry with tears that I quickly blink away.

From the pain you drive into the heart of me

By now I'm screaming the lyrics remembering my family back in New Zealand and really regretting ever leaving

The love we share

I turn onto the road I live on as I attempted to stop crying, so lucas wouldn't notice anything wrong.

Seems to go nowhere

I seen my small light blue house with white fence around it slowly come closer to me.

And I've lost my light.

As I slowly get closer I started to pray that lucas was passed out on the couch.

For I toss and turn I can't sleep at night.

Despite never believing in god I've found myself often praying to him every since I moved here.

Once I ran to you

Some days it feels easier to believe that a god in the sky will take all the pain away

Now I run from you

I pull into the driveway not turning off my car yet, but putting it in park.

This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take me tears and that's not nearly all
Oh, tainted love
Tainted love

I listen to the chorus and finally shut off my car unbuckling my seat belt and sighing as I grab my bag and open my car door. I slowly walk up to the house and pull my key out and unlock the door and head in and there he is sitting on the couch with a beer in his hand. "Why are you late?" he asked slurring his words. He had obviously been drinking for awhile. "I'm really sorry babe, some guy wouldn't leave the club after closing and when he did he waited outside for the girls to leave, so our boss held us back til the cops picked him up." I said quickly making something up. I truly had no excuse other than I was hoping to avoid him. "that's not acceptable bitch" he slurred again this time getting up " I think you deserve a punishment".

I'm not gonna go into detail of what happened that would just be disturbing and i assume you already figured it out. He passed out after he was done and I headed to the kitchen seeing as I forgot to eat lunch and dinner. I quickly made up some leftover and ate them quickly as I was quite tired. I went back to my bedroom to grab some pajamas making sure to not wake Lucas up. I headed to the bathroom and noticed a black eye forming and a bruise around my neck. "Shit" My boss would have my ass if I came in tomorrow looking like this. I brushed my teeth, got changed and applied some medicine, so hopefully the bruises calm down enough for me to cover them completely with makeup tomorrow.

I ended up sleeping on the couch. I never wanted to be by that man, but I was always too scared to leave him.

Hi this is my first time writing on wattpad I really hope you like it! I know this chapter was mainly just a lot of her and non of the misfits or anything, but I promise the next chapter will have them. Anyways I don't really know when I'll update this next, but seeing as were in quarantine I have a lot of free time so hopefully it's soon! Bye-Bye 👋