A Couple Of Wise Guys (editing)

Chalter 8

"I'll have to grab a few things from my house." She looks unsure of her decision. Worried at what might happen tonight. "I won't do anything to you Valerie. I'd never hurt you." I say worried at her lack of trust.

She looks in my eyes, a long still silence. "I believe you...." she says giving a quick slight smile. And for some reason that relaxed me.

"Well I guess we should get it now then" I say opening the front door for her and she follows out to the car. I lock the door and get in the car with her. Leaving my house, the sweet purr of my car covering the silence on the drive there.

She runs in the apartment as it rains outside and after a few long minutes she comes back with a red velvet backpack.

"Are you good?" I ask as she sits beside me in the car in a huff. She nods her head and we drive back to my house. The reflective rain glossing over the roads.

"Why do you want me to stay?" She asks innocently. I look at her and then back on the road. "I'm alone all the time. Year after year. It drives me insane." I say honestly. And I was telling the truth. I didn't want to be alone tonight. I'll just drink again.

Since I've met Valerie. I can't stop thinking about her. I'm only worried I will hurt her. I'm not used to woman and their feelings. I'm rough and strict. Or maybe I just act that way because I have to.

All I know is that I'm so tired. Too tired to be mean. To lie. To anything. Just such a tired and lonely feeling all the time.

I see from the side of my eye she's observing me, looking me up and down. "Tony?..." she asks.

"Yes Lorenzo..." giving her a short glance. She looked serious. " I want this to go somewhere..." was all she said in the most begging innvocent tone. It made my heart melt.

To have finally found someone as complex as me. As strong as me. As unperfect as me. Most women like me for my looks and money and try to get as much out of both as they can.

I've been used for sex and then you just feel useless, torn completely from emotion that I forgot I had any. Woman killed me. Make me rip my hair out. Asking the most from you without understanding.

I sigh. I couldn't think of anything to say. But I wanted the same. I didn't want her to leave because I felt that there was a chance.

"I'm sorry for trying to make you leave... I don't want you to. I just, I don't know how to do this..." I say honestly, feeling bad. " I understand tony...you were just trying to do the right thing. I get your in a dangerous game. But you can't keep pushing people away because of it." Her voice is soft, careful to say the right thing.

"We aren't good people...." she says and for some reason that sat in my head. Never mind being the boss of a strong powerful group. We do what we do. That's all I could say. The one thing that questioned me was, is she really willing to be with me? Ruin her some what normal life to be with someone who, to most people is 'sick' enough to kill people?

Once we arrived back to my house, got through the door. Jeffery was home and welcomed Lorenzo, taking her bag up to a guest bed room up stairs. We now sit back on the couches.

"Are you hungry?" I ask her politely sitting with her legs crossed on the couch she sat on before, me on the other one. "Um, a little yeah" she nods her head with a smile.

"Jeffery!" I call out as he's upstairs. And I here his footstep coming down and he enters the room. "Yes sir" he stands with perfect posture. His English accent strong. "Valerie what do you feel like?" I ask her sitting on the couch looking a little weirded out. "Anythings fine...." she says awkwardly.