" You're special." [Minsung]

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Oh how I wish,
how I wish you loved me, how I wish you cared, how I wish you didn't lie.
I wish I had the strength to leave you, I wish I had the strength to confront you, I wish I had the confidence like he had, I wish I had looks he had, I wish I had the loveable personality he had.

I wish you loved me, the way you loved him.

I wish you left me, I wish you broke up with me, I wish you didn't hold onto me, I wish you didn't remind me every day that I was special to you, we all knew that was a god damn lie, I wish you didn't hold me, I wish you didn't kiss me, I wish you didn't show me acts of love, kindness, passion.

I wish you simply didn't, because you made me believe I had a chance, made me believe I was, special, made me believe I was loved.

If you loved me so much, If I was as special, to you, as you said I was,

Then, why.