Firefly [BNHA]

2 [Deku]

When I didn't hear the split-second splat, and when I didn't feel the split-second pain, I opened my eyes.

I was shocked to find a brown haired girl below me.

'I can't even die right...'

"Release!" She said before she caught me in her arms, almost toppiling over from my weight.

She leaned over so I could put my feet on the ground, and I stared at her speechless.

And then I seen tears fall down her cheeks.

"Why..."

"What?" I couldn't help but ask. I heard what she said just fine, that was clear. I just didn't get why she was asking. What exactly was she asking me?

Why I jumped off the roof, trying to commit suicide?

Why I felt the need to commit suicide?

Why I didn't thank her, or apologize to her?

"Why...why would you do that!?" She raised her voice at me, glaring at me with anger and worry.

It was weird.

But I get it.

"I'm sorry I was a burden-"

I stiffened when I felt her grab my shoulders. She was a bit taller than me, about an inch or two. There was also the fact that she made me stop falling right when I was about to hit the ground, so she must have a powerful quirk. 

Meaning, she could be dangerous.

But why would she save me if she was?

Did she want to fuel her ego?

Or did she simply want to save me to make her feel like a hero?

Or was she just...a good person?

"Why would you do something like that!?" She yelled at me, and I just stared at her.

I didn't know what to say.

What was I supposed to say?

"You can't just do that!" She told me, shaking me a bit.

"Why would you wanna-I-I don't understand! Who made you feel the need to take your own life away?"

I stayed silent, hanging my head.

"I..."

I swallowed, feeling a choked up sob try to escape me, but I held it in.

"I...I'm...Why do you care?" I asked her, not meeting her furious gaze.

"What do you mean why do I care!? Any decent human being would! Why would you wanna kill yourself!? What pushed you over the edge that made you want to end your life?!"

I stayed expressionless, not emitting a sound.

I knew exactly what pushed me.

I knew exactly what hurt me so much that made me want to do it.

"Why would you ever-"

I cut her off. "I don't really know why I couldn't handle it all...maybe it was because I was too weak...maybe it was because I'm quirkless...maybe it's because I'm just tired of it all...tired of the bullying, the insults, the glares, the mocking." I grabbed her hand, my grip tightening on it as I got angrier and angrier.

"Maybe it was because my own mother was sorry for me, pitying me like I was a homeless person, treating me like I was an orphan, having no one to believe that I could become something great. The moment I had no quirk, the moment she found out, it was over. That was it, that was the end. No happy ending for me, no one there to assure me that I could still do something, that I'm not worthless or useless, that I'm not weak or a burden, but no."

I released her hand, looking up to glare into her eyes, feeling the anger course through my veins.

"I was treated like an outcast, a nobody."

I walked past her, feeling tears fill up my eyes as everything sunk in.

No one cared about me.

I felt her grab my shoulder, turning me around, and before I knew what I did, I slapped her hand off.

And when I turned around, I made eye contact with her.

And she looked scared.

"Why are you being so mean? You're making him cry, Kacchan!"

My eyes faltered, and I was filled with regret and dread.

I hung my head again, in shame.

"...I'm sorry I made you feel the need to use your quirk..."

Then I turned around and walked away.

"If you keep hurting him, uh-I'll-uh-I'll stop you myself!"

'I'm such an idiot...' I thought to myself, walking in my usual direction to go home.

As I walked, I started hearing screams. I looked up and stopped walking.

I looked around me, hearing it again. I ran in the screams were coming from, and I widened my eyes.

'It's the sludge monster from earlier...'

Then it clicked.

'I must have knocked it off after I hopped on All Might! Oh no, its free because of me! I really am an idiot! So stupid!!'

I seen familiar explosions, and I tensed.

'Those look like Kacchan's explosions...wait-'

I froze.

'KACCHAN!!'

I ran through the crowd, pushing people left and right. I forced them to move out of the way, trying my best to make it to Kacchan.

As I made it to the front, I was right.

Kacchan was being held captive.

'All of this happened...because of me...'

I was a frozen statue when our eyes met.

Even if it was only for a brief second, even when he was far away, I could see the emotion in his eyes.

He was scared.

So, I took off running.

"Pretending to be a hero? You don't stand a chance without a quirk, Deku."

I didn't think.