WHY I'M I STILL CRYING AND HAVE FEELINGS FOR SOMEONE WHO STABBED ME IN THE BACK SOMEONE WHO HURT ME SOMEONE WHO WAS AN ASSHOLE AND SOMEONE WHO BETRAYED MY TRUST AND WHY DO I STILL CARE ABOUT SOMEONE WHO RAPED AND SEXUAL ASSULTED ME AND DOES EVEN LOVE ME AS THIER CHILD AND WHY DO I LISTEN WHEN MOM SAYS "YOUR NOT A BOY" OR" YOUR JUST CONFUSED " AND WHY CAN'T I JUST END IT ALL NO ONES GOING MISS ME NO ONE IS GOING CARE T H E Y N E V E R CARE UNTIL YOU ARE GONE DEAD THEY DON'T FUCKING CARE CIEL SO STOP HURT YOUR SELF AND END IT! IT'LL STOP ALL THE PAIN OR MAY BE JUST CUT YOUR NOT EVEN CLEAN ANYMORE STUPID STUPID STUPID IT'S NEVER GONNA STOP UNLESS YOU DO SOMETHING DUMBASS...make it stop MAKE IT STOP GO AWAY LEAVE ME ALONE IN MY CONNER WHERE I LIKE IT OK!? JUST HOW MUCH LONGER DO I NEED TO SUFFER THIS WORLD OF SHIT AND HOW LONGER UNTIL I CAN FINALLY RUN AWAY OH THAT'S RIGHT NOT UNTIL MY 15 TH FUCKING BIRTHDAY JUST STOP MAKE T H E WORLD STOP!!
