The Baby Boy (Brittana fan fiction )

Coming Out Is Hard To Do Pt 1 : Acceptance

I was standing in the choir room by the piano with Lauren when Mr. Schue came in and wrote on the broad in big red letter's SEXY to which all I could say was " I really hope that's not one of the requirements for Regional's, with Berry in those tights, we don't stand a chance ". In response, Mr.Schue said "No, this isn't about Regionals. I'm less worried about that right now and more worried about the fact that it's become clear to me that some of you have been lacking when it comes to understanding the ... the, uh ... the intricacies of adult relationships " Which is when Mr. Schue told us he had brought the awesome Miss Holiday to teach us a lesson in being sexually safe that week it was officially sexy/ sex ed week in glee club. Which was kicked off with me and Brittany joining Miss Holiday in singing Joan Jett's "Do You Want to Touch Me?".

Later that day Brittany came over we were sitting around that was when she straddled me and started kissing my neck I couldn't help but let out a moan she untied her hair and like a magnet, my fingers curled themselves into it. I moaned as she sucked my pulse my hands slid under her shirt to cup her medium-sized but firm breast squeezing them gently she moaned against my neck. Brittany brought her head up and kissed me I wrapped my arms around her neck and pressed into the kiss our lips began to move and our tongue met in what was like a fight for dominance of each other's mouths. Brittany's tongue was soft as I began to explore her mouth with my own she let out a soft yet audible moan that turned me on so much more my body felt alive, She pulled off my top and I quickly did away with her's I kissed her neck undoing her bra with one swift motion. Rolling Brittany over I kissed her hungrily kissing her neck and around her collarbone leaving a hickey on the corners and in the middle I lightly kissed her chest feeling her finger massage my scalp as she ran her fingers threw my hair, I kissed the tops of her breast and in between hearing a moan escape Brittany's lips I gently bit the sizes of her breast but the moment I begin sucking her nipples she moaned enough to get me even wetter then I was, to begin with. I kissed every inch of her beautiful toned slim body I kissed her pelvis and kissed her inner thighs the smell of her filled my senses when I licked her slit she moaned louder than I have ever heard her I started eating her out until finally, she shook with an orgasm as I heard her scream "SANTANA!". I came up no sooner I did Brittany flipped us over and I swear that girl could not only dance but she had the most talented tongue I moaned so loud as she fucked me with her tongue my whole body convulsed with pleasure. Both of us breathed heavily as we came down from our orgasms hours later we got dressed and started cleaning up.

Brittany sat in the chair I had in my room and then she spoke as I pulled back her hair " I want to talk to you about something I really like when we make out and stuff " she paused as I finished I said, " Which isn't cheating, because...?" She answers "The plumbing's different" I walk around her "mm-hmm." I walked over to my dresser Brittany spoke again "But when Artie and I are together, we talk about stuff, like feelings." I look in the corner of my eye and back at my mirror to apply my lip gloss "Why?" Brittany looked at me and looked down "Because, with feelings, it's better." I looked at her in my oh please face "Are you kidding? It's better when it doesn't involve feelings. "I turned looked at her, "I think it's better when it doesn't involve eye contact." Brittany looked back at me "I don't know. I guess I just don't know how I feel about us. "I started to walk to my bed I picked up a pillow that was knocked off it "Look... Let's be clear here I 'm not interested in any labels, " I turned to look back at her "unless it's on something I shoplift" Brittany was silent she looked back at me and shook her head " I don't know, Santana. I think we should talk to somebody. Like an adult. This relationship is really confusing for me. "I look at her "Breakfast is confusing for you.' I shake my head "Well, sometimes it's sweet and sometimes it's salty. Like, what if I have eggs for dinner? Then what is it? "I look at her and go back to what I was doing.

The next day at school we went looking for the only person that could help us Miss Holiday we found her in the library she walked up to us cheerful as usual " Ladies " we stopped in front of her I spoke up " Miss Holiday, we need your help, " She looked at us with concern on her face. She led us to the Health and Wellness room and we all sat on the floor in a circle that is when Brittany asked: "So, why are we sitting on the floor?" Miss Holiday answered "Cause we're in Japan." she said sarcastically and breathily laughed "No." "Welcome to my sacred sexy sharing circle. I want to thank you guys for confiding in me, ' cause I know this is tough" she paused" And I want to ask both of you if either one of you thinks that you might be a lesbian. "Brittany responded first to her question" I don't know "I looked at her and answered "Yeah, I mean, who knows? I'm attracted to girls, and I'm attracted to guys. "I look over a Brittany whose eyes were shifted down looking sad "I've made out with a mannequin." I looked back at Miss Holiday "I even had a sex dream about a shrub that was just in the shape of a person." Miss Holiday began to speak "Hmm. Well, we've all been there. I went to an all-girls college where the only industry in the town was the manufacturing of softball equipment. " She starts to speak as if she was going to have a flashback " I still feel a little tingle when I hear Ani DiFranco " she shuttered. " Ooh! Anyway, it's not about who you are attracted to, ultimately. It's about who you fall in love with. "Brittany spoke up and we both looked at her "Well, I don't know how I feel, because Santana refuses to talk about it." I look down and then back at Miss Holiday as she speaks again "Okay, well, I know talking about feelings can be really hard, so I have an idea. Why don't you guys find a song and see if maybe the lyrics of the song could help you start a dialogue going? "I spoke in agreement "I could be down with that. I have the perfect song. There's just one problem, though. "I looked over at Brittany "Brit and I may need your help to sing it" I look back at Miss Holiday. With a smile on her face, she accepts "I thought you'd never ask."

We walked into the choir room and we told Mr. Schue that we were going to sing with Miss Holiday we sang Fleetwood Mac's "Landslide " as we sang I began to realize I had all these feeling I began to realize I was in love with Brittany. I began tearing up as I sang when the song ended Brittany spoke: "Is that really how you feel?" She looked at me and I sniffed wiping my eyes "Uh, yeah." I got up and walked over to Brittany who got up and we hugged and I whispered " Thank you " as she held onto me we broke apart and talked softly and I looked into her crystal clear blue eyes and smiled and nodded. Then Rachel that Hobbit opened her yap ruining the moment "Can I just applaud this trio for exploring the uncharted world of Sapphic charm? Brava. Brava. "That is when my defenses went right back up that had been brought down "Look, just because I sang a song with Brittany, doesn't mean that you can put a label on me. Is that clear? "I looked a Brittany eye messaging her I was sorry and walked back to my seat.

The next day I walked up to Brittany at her locker " Hi " she looked at me in response " Hi " I was nervous " can we talk? " Brittany was putting her books away "But we never do that" I shook my head "I know, but, um I wanted to thank you ...for performing that song with me in Glee Club." Brittany nodded looking at me "yeah." I spoke, "'Cause it's made me do a lot of thinking." I paused and took a deep breath to calm myself because of what I was about to admit to the girl I had been fighting my feelings for, so long "What I've realized is why I'm such a bitch all the time." I paused again "I'm a bitch because I'm angry. I'm angry because I have all of these feelings --" I stopped again as people walked past and spoke again "feelings for you -- that I'm afraid of dealing with because I'm afraid of dealing with the consequences." I felt myself fighting tears "And Brittany, I can't go to an Indigo Girls concert, I just can't. "Brittany nodded "I understand that." I looked at her "Do you understand what I'm trying to say here?" Brittany looked at me clearly trying to understand "Not really" still fighting the tears I said it "I want to be with you. But I'm afraid of the talks, and the looks. I mean, you know what happened to Kurt at this school." Brittany looked at me with reassurance "But honey ... if anybody were to ever make fun of you, "I felt the tear beginning to escape "you would either kick their ass or slash them with your vicious, vicious words." The tears had escaped I sniffled choking up "Yeah, I know. But ... I'm so afraid of what everyone will say behind my back. "The finally the words came out "Still, I have to accept ... that I love you." "I love you." And I don't want to be with Sam or Finn or any of those other guys, I just want you "The tear flowed down my face as I spoke pleading "Please say you love me back." "Please..."

Brittany smiled softly when she heard the words she had been waiting for and she spoke with caring in her voice "Of course I love you. I do " she paused " And I would totally be with you, if it weren't for Artie " I swear I could hear my heart shatter as that sentence left her lips I shook my head in disbelief " Artie? " The tears leaking looking a Brittany like someone punched the wind out of me. "I love him, too. "that was the crushing blow " I don't want to hurt him, that's not right I can't break up with him, " I felt my tears come down my voice choked and mad " Yes, you can. He's just a stupid boy." I looked at Brittany so hurt that I had come out and confessed my feelings for her and she rejected me. She began to speak "But it wouldn't be right." I shook my head " Santana you have to know ... if Artie and I were to ever break up, and I'm lucky enough that you're still single ... " She went to take my hand but I pushed her's away " Don't " She looked at me " .. I am so yours. "She paused and I nodded tears still coming as they have been "Proudly so." I looked at her so mad and so hurt "Yeah, wow. Whoever thought that being fluid meant you could be so stuck? "Brittany moved towards me "I'm sorry "she saw how hurt I was "Don't ..." She went to hug me I pushed her off" Get off me." She had a cry in her voice ' I'm sorry "I walked away completely and utterly destroyed. I went home and cried my eyes out that night I had let my walls down only to be hurt by the one person I thought wouldn't.