You would always lick the side of your ice cream
You would always dog ear your favorite books
You would alway scream at your food when it didn't stay on the fork
You would always say you were sorry after you tripped over my tiny feet
You would always say you love me before you turned off the light
You would always smile when I smiled
You always would
But then you stopped opening up to me
You ate your ice cream in silence
You wouldn't read anymore
You ate your food quickly
You never got close enough to trip on my tiny feet
You wouldn't say a thing before or after the lights were off
I didn't smile
And neither did you
You left
You were the only one I didn't understand
And that seemed ok to me
But now that your gone
I can't help but notice that you smile when she does
And that you say I love you to her all the time
Just like you told me
I always trip on people's feet and can't help blurting I'm sorry
But sometimes I just say I'm sorry inbetween sobs
Sobs that are lost in the constricted walls of the two person apartment
That holds one heart
And no soul
I always scream at my food
I always scream
I clutch at my skin hoping to feel you, but I don't
I can only hear my silent shrieking
I try to read the books you bookmarked
But I can't
I highlighted everything that reminded me of you
And I don't know why
I lick the side of my ice cream
It's just a simple gesture
A token of remembrance
But I don't like to remember you
Because you were to perfect for me
With all your beautiful flaws
That never looked good on me
You were the only one I didn't understand
And I'm glad that I don't
Because I always needed to start with someone
And that someone was you
Thank you
I love you
There's this one ^^^^
