my love...(Tommy innit X reader)

just friends???

me and tommy spent are days at school as normal we got to school ,we sat with his friends, went to class, we ate lunch,ext. after school we would play minecraft and talk on the phone for hours and every passing minute my feelings would get stronger  i would always try to avoid any thoughts of tommy but they would just keep coming until i stopped fighting them and excepted them i said "there's nothing wrong with a little crush" but there was every time i would so the least bit of affection tommy would walk away or tell to "shut up thats gay " at one point i thought he felt the same  but...

FLASH BACK

(scene: bus )

i asked "hey Tommy?" he replied "yea y/n" i say shyly "do you have a crush on anyone " he replies saying " uhm yea it *****" "oh.. thats cool " i felt like crying . i felt like i was forbidden love i didnt want to seem upset so i played it off like i was fine and joked around the rest of the way but when i got home i just couldn't hold my tear i ran to my room crying i don't know why i knew he didn't like me but i got my hopes up and ruined everything in the process nothing would be the same after this instead of smiling at the thought of him i would cry know he would never be mine . My train of thought is interrupted by my phone ringing i wipe my tears and clear my throat and say "hello" tommy says " hi y/n wanna play minecraft " i say trying not to cry "yea sorry can't im busy" my voice shaky he says worriedly "hey you ok you sound off" i say "yea i-i'm fine" about to break he says sternly "don't lie to me y/n" i say letting silent tears fall down my face "tommy im fine" my voice breaking he says concerned "ok . . . bye ig" i say "bye..." 

tommy's pov 

y/n has been really distant he hasn't made any jokes or any flirty come backs ever since that call i want to talk to him but im scared ill make it worse we talk and play minecraft but he not showing much emotion like when we first met like somethings holding him back and its getting harder to hind my feeling i worry so much about him that its starting to uncover my feeling people are starting to get suspicious of me and y/n i always say"we're just friends" but i know deep down i want to be more then "just friends" but im so scared like that one time he asked me "do you like anyone " i said a random person because if i told the truth i might get rejected and i might lose my best friend in doing so. so i kept quiet about my feelings i said "its better we stay this way" 

y/ns pov 

its been2 weeks since the call i've kept my feeling hiddin in fear of losing tommy but then tommy said "hey y/n can we talk" i say "yea ig" he says "are you sure your alright you haven't been your self lately" i say "im fine tommy" he says"no your not y/n you dont look me in the eyes anymore you don't joke around anymore whats wrong" i say getting annoyed "tommy lay off im fine ok i just don't want to open up to much" he says reassuringly" you can talk to me y/n i know i'm a dick sometimes  but you can talk to me please tell me whats wrong so i can help " you scream out of anger" TOMMY I SAID LAY OFF YOU WANNA KNOW WHATS WRONG IM SCARED IM SCARED TO LOSE YOU IM SCARED CAUSE IF I TELL YOU WHATS WRONG YOU'LL LEAVE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE" he says in shock" i'm sorry for making you upset just know im here and im not leaving we're friends and im no-" i cut him off and say " exactly we are friends JUST FRIENDS SO WE SHOULD ACT LIKE IT" i say on the verge of tears "i want to tell you i want to tell you what im feeling but im scared you'll leave. . . . . . . . im sorry i - i have to go " i say crying 

A/N

hey guys! sorry for the cliff hanger but i wanna say drink some water eat something and remember someone loves you so don't give up 

bye love you <3<3<3<3