Memories...

My mind

A/n I'm so sorry, I was so busy with Christmas, and I didn't have enough time to update, this chapter is sort of a bridge to the next one. Enjoy!!

Shinso shook. 

The Advils weren't working. 

Why was everything like this? Everyone he loved, always had a problem. They died. 

Why?

Why?

WHY DID THIS ALWAYS FUCKING HAPPEN??!?!

Shinso had no father, he had left him. His mother ran off with some actor.  

Deku had no parents, his father was dead since he killed him. His mother was beaten within an inch of her life. 

Two broken people.

Perfect for each other.

Absolutely perfect.

*did I mention Gay Af? NO? Well, yes.*

He decided to try and call Deku.

*RING RING RINGGGGGG*

*what kind of ring? A wedding one? Or another type...hehehe not one you wear on your finger...*

"Shinso?" Came the weary voice on the other end of the line.

"I-," He began. He hadn't thought this through.

" Can, can we talk?" he questioned, testing the waters carefully.

"Sure, in person? Or just on this call?" Deku replied.

"In-Person please." 

" Would you like to go to XXX Cafe on XXX street?"

" I'd love to."

Shinso smirked, shaking his head.

He grabbed his keys, jacket, and headed out to meet his boyfriend.

They had a lot to talk about...

*Y'all, just google Men's toque, white turtleneck, pale brown coat, one that goes down to yo knees, and black shoes. Also, imagine Hitoshi with glasses.* 

Deku was sitting there by the time he got out of the Uber.

He looked good, as usual.

 H-hey, you're early..." Shinso said.

" I always am," Deku replied, nonchalantly.

" Good to know," replied Shinso.

He pulled up his chair and sat down, taking in the beautiful scenery.

" Beautiful isn't it?"

"Pardon?" Shinso did not understand. 

Deku gestured towards the water, the green grass, the cherry blossom trees. 

" I'm talking about the world."

" I'm sorry, I don't understand."

" It takes someone a lifetime of suffering to appreciate how beautiful the world can be."

"-Tsunami"

" Indeed."

" So, we have both suffered, and so we appreciate what we see."

" I'll talk now, " said Shinso.

" Be my guest."

" Are you really a villain?" That one question, the one that could change everything. Was Dabi lying? Or was everything one big lie to fool Shinso and break his heart?

" Yes."

" Not what I expected..." groaned Shinso.

" When I was young, my dad left my mom."

" Shit."

" Shit is right."

" Sorry, continue, that was rude of me."

" A few years later, he killed her."

" OMA."

"..."

Deku offered a sardonic grin. Shinso felt goosebumps rapidly materialize on his forearms.

" SO I KILLED HIM."

Shinso had to take a few minutes to register what Deku had just said to him, in public no less.

" So, you really are a villain?"

" Yes."

"I-I, 'scuse me a minute, I need to think about what you just said."

" Take your time"

Shinso whirled around and paced back and forth.

Did he kill his father, why? Because his father killed his mother. His father must have been abusive, and his mom was his anchor. He killed his father because...was he possessive? That's logical, the possessive boy kills his father for taking away his mother, but how did he get involved with Dabi? What do I do now? What should I do? What will he do?

" Done?" said Deku.

"Yes, now it's my turn."

" Tell me about yourself Shinso."

" Once upon a time, I had a boyfriend."

*from here on now is Shinso speaking aloud.

"His name was Hikaru. He had the most beautiful violet eyes, and he was full of kindness. He was a ray of light in my life. There was a bully in the school I attended, Jin Koriyama. He was a fucking asshole. He bullied Hikaru, every single day because he had nothing better to do, and he bullied him for being gay."

" What a little dipshit." mumbled Deku.

" So, one day, Hikaru pissed him off. He called Koriyama for being a bully, and Koriyama got his number..."

 Shinso's breath caught, his chest heaving, and tears dripping down. Deku gave him a tissue from his purse.*

*SOFT BOI HAS A PURSE

" S-Sorry, it's really hard to talk about."

" I understand, take your time ok? I have all afternoon."

"He told him to go to the school roof..."

"And..."  Shinso's voice broke, dripping with emotion.

" I told him it was better to go there and face it now than to receive Koriyama's wrath later...So he went to the roof that day. Koriyama raped him."

 Deku's hand flew to his mouth, which was in the shape of an 'O'.

" I'm so sorry..."

" It's not your fault..."
"The next day...he killed himself. I watched it happen. He sent me a text to come to meet him at the rooftop, and his feet were dangling over the edge."

"How tall was the building?"

" Fifteen stories high, it was a private school, with dorms."

"He sang a song before he jumped...I still, I should've stopped him, I should've told him, I loved him...it's all my fault...I told him to go to the roof that day."

Shinso cried the whole night with Deku.