My Lost Boy

Part 6

PRESENT        

"Get out of the god damn chair Julianne! You need sunlight, you cant just stay in this house everyday of your life!" Emmett said. I had been staring at walls for days, not eating, crying my eyes out, and trying to stay strong for Lily and Wendy, my two beautiful daughters. "You need to get out there!" he said kneeling down to where i was sitting. Today had been a bad day, I had been crying, and I hadnt eaten anything except for a peice of toast. I got up, and went over to the fireplace, and saw a picture from Peter and I's wedding day. I smiled and then started to tear up. I picked it up. "We looked so happy." i said crying. In the picture Peter was spinning me around by the waist, and there were lilies flying everywhere, and all the lost boys were laughing and dancing around us. I was wearing a long white dress made out of silk and daisies covere the sides of it, and Peter was wearing black boots, his black pants, and a button down white shirt. We were both laughing our asses off, and it made me happy to remember that moment. I put the picture back, and wiped my tears from my face. Emmett walked up to me, and put a hand on my shoulder, I cringed. "I know that its hard, and I have NO IDEA what you're going through, but its been 2 months honey, dont you think its time to forget Peter?" My eyes widened and I turned to look at him, and started to tear up, and took a step closer to him, and pointed my finger at him. "Don't you dare tell me to forget about someone that meant more than words to me! I LOVED PETER SO MUCH IT HURTS TO EVEN SAY. My heart ACHES when I wake up, and he's not beside me, and I cry when my darling girls ask me where their daddy is, and I have to make some SHIT of an exscuse telling them that daddy is on "vacation" when REALLY he risked his life for me, and now he is locked up in a damn box, and I couldnt save him! I miss him every, single day of my life, and all i want is to just have hm back!" i screamed. I started to tear up, but I wasnt done yet. "EMMETT YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU LIKE A BROTHER BUT I NEED YOU TO UNDERSTAND THAT I AM SO BROKEN INSIDE, AND ALL I WANT IS TO FEEL HIM TOUCH ME AGAIN, AND I WANT HIM TO COME HOME AND TWIRL ME AROUND AND SAY "IM BACK!!" TO THE GIRLS. I WANT TO HAVE THE FIRST NIGHT WE EVER KISSED BACK, AND I WANT MY DARLING PETER PAN BACK, AND I NEVER WANT TO LIVE ANOTHER DAY CRYING, BUT ITS UNSTOPABLE, AND IM TRYING BUT-" i started to cry my eyes out." Its so hard to live without someone that you promised to live with forever." i said quietly when I noticed my girls standing by the door crying. They had Peter's eyes, and nose. "Were sowwy momma" they both said. I started to cry then smile. I kneeled to the ground. "Come here sweeties." i said in a quiet and sweet voice. They ran to me, and I hugged them hard, so they would know how much I loved them. "I love you to Julianne, and I understand." Emmett said as he walked out the door. I smiled as he walked away, and said to my girls "I love you guys more than anything, and that will never, EVER change." "We love you to momma" Wendy whispered. "Always" Lily whispered. I started to cry, and looked at the picture of Peter and I's wedding day, and just fell back into that beautiful moment.