the one I loved

chapter 21

(Y/n's pov)

After reading all the things that had happened I couldn't help but fall on my knees and cry. I couldn't believe that all these years that I thought he betrayed me and got back to his home that he was actually dead by my father's hands. The only one that had actually betrayed me was my father. The hatred I had for my own father now was literally unbearable, if he was here right in front of me I would have killed him with my bare hands. He took the only true love of my life from me like he was taking he meant nothing to me. He manipulated me into thinking that Namjoon was the bad one and I couldn't help but believe him. He started this show and made me play in it without even knowing it, I couldn't believe that I was getting fooled all these years and my mother, my own mother didn't tell me a word about it. I was so played. Memories started running in my mind in a try of calming me down.

(Flashback)
I was relaxing in my room after a long day outside, today my parents decided that it was a good day to go for a picnic and we really did have fun. Namjoon and Geongmin came with us since my parents got used to both of them and of course Namjoon looked wonderful like always and I couldn't help but tease him a bit, he was really cute.
Now it was about 11pm and the usual knock on my door was heard. I smirked to myself as Namjoon got in the room and attacked me with a kiss. "Well hello there" I said as I pushed him off me and smired "lets not do this tonight, I have other plans in mind" I said as I sat across the room. "Like what?" He asked as a he formed a smirk and raised an eyebrow "let me draw you tonight" I answered seductively as he bit his lip and of course he agreed. He was the only one that knew that I drew and also the only one that knew that I wanted yo be an artist and he always supported me and I was happy he was in my life.
He took some time to get ready, but when he finally was done, he layed on the bed, put a sheet over his pare body to cover his member and posed. I blushed at the sight and he slightly teased me before I went right to work.
After some time off sketching the drawing was finally done and I was really proud of it, I looked one last time at him and then at the sketch book before letting a deep sigh of satisfaction. He stood up from the bed and walked towards me and looked at the sketch before placing a soft kiss on my lips. "Why don't you take control tonight?" He asked as he pulled me to the bed and then on top of him as I smirked and then attached his lips.
(End of flashback)

The memory ended as another tear rolled down my cheek. It was all over. I should have known better, now he's long gone and I can do nothing about it, only cry by how stupid I was for believe that I could hide something like this. Well now the only thing I can do is get on with it since my life is over anyway.

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Well that was a big chapter

I wanted to put that flashback as a part of the story when Namjoon was still alive but I forgot and I had to squeeze it somewhere so here it is

It really reminds me of that one Titanic scene but anyway

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